I'm Still In love With Him

Stage 60 - Luckly

Shaiira Salas
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Wow Karma! im here tara samahan mo ako, Your welcome with open arms pa.

bwisit! i know i hurt bea, i hurt Zack. Everyone i hurt them. Di ko naman alam na ganun pala kasakit ang mga pinaggagawa ko. I felt sorry about this.

"Anak kumain kana, isang linggo ka nang hindi kumakain" di ko sya pinansin at tinalukbong ko ang comforter ko sa katawan ko.

"i know nasasaktan ka ngayon Anak, i tried to beg him also, His father i already talked but--"

i cut the crap at iniyakap sya. Minsan pala maswerte ako, di ko lang napapansin at di ko naappreciate.
i'm Lucky that i have dad. The kind of father that everyone wished.

napakasupportive nya, even sa mga kalokohan ko at kabaliwan lalo na kay Chad. from the start i told him about my feelings for chad. and he effort everything para mapalapit ako kay Chad.

but Chad refused, he cant love me like i do. and now i already know na may kinakasama nya, nakita ko sya sa mall may kasama. Lalapitan ko sana kaya lang nag-halikan sila sa harapan ko, kamuntikan pa akong magwala buti at napigilan ko sarili ko kahit deep inside durog na durog ako.

"Dad, ang sakit! bakit parati nalang akong hindi minamahal? pangit ba ako? may mali ba sakin?" umiiyak kong bulalas sa kanya at inayakap agad sya.

"No, sadyang iba lang talaga ang nakatadhana sa kanila, kahit anong ganda pa ng isang babae ang iharap mo sa isang lalaki, kung hindi ikaw ang tinitibok ng puso nya, he'll never notice you, kasi iba ang nakatadhana sa kanila. and you? your deserve someone who can love you back. believe me anak, if you find and finally found someone to love, mahigit na kasiyahan ang mararanasan mo. Mahigit pa sa ngayon.." aniya at napahagulgol ako ng iyak sa balikat ni daddy.

"Ibig sabihin, you and mom are not meant to be?" inalis ni dad ang pagkakayap ko sa kanya at tinignan ako.
i feel his hurt and i was so sad for this.

"minsan talaga may mga taong pinagtatagpo pero hindi itinakda. and for the case of your mother and me we're bound to be seperate." malungkot na wika ni dad.

"Did you regret that you meet her dad?"

umiling si dad sabay ngiti. "Gustuhin ko man, Pero huli na. atleast for the wrong that we've done may maganda at tama pa ding nangyari. and its you, i'm happy  na kahit iniwan tayo ng mommy mo, atleast i have you, a beautiful princess"

"Dad naman eh, your teasing me.. my elementary friend used to call me ugly duckling--" pagrereklamo ko.

"Because they cant really see the whole you, they only knew and notice the wrong that you've done. Even if you had a million good and one bad, people will always remember the bad things that you have commit, Thats life" tumango naman ako dahil kahit nagdadrama ako sa dad ko, His really encouring me. and i love it. i dont know kung bakit ko nagawa yung mga pinaggagawa ko kay Bea. I feel sorry about this.

"Dad, in your entire life? did you commit a mistake--" napatawa sya ng malakas.

"We all people commit mistakes and mistakes are made to left lessons" i really dont know if i will tell this to dad. kung ano ang ginagawa kong masakit kay bea at lalo na kay zack.