Lost

16

Two weeks later

I sit on the couch in my black skirt and top waiting for Vicky to come down.

"Vicky please hurry up, it's starting" I yell.

"Coming!" Vicky yells running down the stairs in her heels.

"Everybody ready?" Vicky asks.

"Yea, let's just get this over with" Nixon sighs.

Ian drives us to where the funeral was being held. The whole time I was just staring at Alex's coffin. I never told him I loved him, or that I was one week pregnant with his child. I hope he knows that I love him. I look around at his family members and friends. Nixon and Ian were the only one's staying calm, and me. I kinda freaked out at the hospital. I went into a deep depression when he die, almost tried to kill myself with pills, but Max saved my life. I just wish the doctors could've saved Alex's.

The service takes about an hour to end then everyone pays their final respects. The others and I gather around his coffin to say a few words.

"I'm gonna miss you, buddy" Jax smiles.

"All of us will, this was so unexpected" Sam sniffs.

"I know I didn't know you that well, but you were pretty awesome" Max smiles.

"I love you, and I'll raise our child to be an amazing boy or girl"

"What! Your pregnant!" Sam smiles.

I never told them.

"Yea" I smile.

"Congratulations, looks like we'll have one piece of him still with us" Nixon smiles.

I'm really gonna miss him.

It's been about two months since I've written in here. I've been coping with Alexanders, passing. I'm getting better with the help of my amazing best friends. I kinda acted a little dramatic at the hospital when he died, but it hit me so hard, I didn't even get to say goodbye.... Turns out that yes, I'm pregnant with Alex's child. To bad he/she will never know their father. I'm in college majoring in journalism trying to get my masters. I have my own apartment now. Sam and Jax have moved in together. Nixon and Vicky are working their relationship out. Max and Ian are getting closer everyday. Alex would've been in college, getting a degree to be a doctor. I hope I can raise his child in a good healthy environment and make him happy. I won't let him down.