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Labor Pains (poems)

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Poem of loss, the agony of a loved one betraying sacred trust, followed by two more in sequence of recovery, and a fourth capturing the feeling of what Love really is before the insight vanishes with time...

#betrayal #growth #love #pain #salvation #suffering #transformation

Labor Pains

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by dougseabright

by dougseabright

Slowly, then quicker, the thought

percolates up to my mind and explodes

into my consciousness.

She cheated on me!

The love of my life! The one! She who filled

my days, anchored my nights!

I cannot sleep.

I cannot eat.

I cannot stop shivering,

I am cold,

I cannot see through the tears.

My solitude has no walls.

Days go on without relief.

She is sleeping with another.

She is gone.

I am alone.

Weakened, drained, empty.

My insides turned raw by the carnage

Left in the wake

Of her betrayal.

Everything hurts.

All food is bland,

I have no appetite, I loose weight.

My mind battles the obvious,

hopeless,

She is gone. I lost her.

I hold only pain.

Pain so gripping

my body freezes.

I cannot shit.

My vocal cords are squeezed

by the agony.

I cannot talk to anyone lest

I cry, and cry, and cry.

I will never again touch her

slender limbs, kiss her delicious

lower lip,

connect to her vibrant soul.

I lost her, I am cast out,

shipwrecked. Undone.

I can never be the same.

I see people I never saw,

I hear voices I never heard,

I feel suffering I never recognized.

And my pain merges with others.

In promiscuous empathy, a path

to salvation.

Unexpected, fragile, faint,

a delicate light caresses my heart.

I am changing.

Awakened by misery.

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