Chessa - Why does it have to be like this

Forgiveness

Emilio:

It had been 2 days since Tessa kissed me, and I was tearing myself up about it. I know I needed to talk to Chance about it but I kept pulling out because I was afraid of what he would say.

"Emi" said Ivan, interrupting my thoughts.

"Hmm?" I said as I looked up at him.

"Go talk to Chance" he told me.

It was like he could read my mind or something.

I did a quick, sharp not, and stood up, making my way upstairs to his room. I was nervous, and as I knocked on the door, I could feel sweat drip down my face.

"Come in" a gruff voice responded.

I slowly opened the door, still not knowing what to say or do.

"Umm...I....uhhh" I stuttered.

He looked towards the ground, into his hands which were folded on his lap, waiting for me to speak.

"I'm sorry about what happened with Tessa" I mumbled, hoping he didn't hear me so I could ignore the problem for at least another day. 

Though he did hear me.

He sighed, running his hand through his hair. I could see that his eyes were red and puffy, and my heart immediately broke for him.

"It's... it's not your fault Emi" he whispered, not making eye contact with me.

"But it is, i'm so sorry. I should've stopped her, I could've, but I didn't, and I'm so so sorry for that" I rambled, now crying.

For the first time in two days Chance looked up at me. He stood up, and made his way over to me. He lifted his hand and I immediately flinched, thinking he would hit me, but instead, I felt an arm go around my shoulder.

"Emilio... I don't blame you at all ok?" he said as he sincerely looked into my eyes.

"I'm sorry" I whispered.

I heard a deep sigh, and looked up to his tear stuck face.

"It's not your fault at all. Please Emi, I don't blame you." he begged.

"Thankyou" I stammered.

"It was Tessa" I heard him growl. 

"I know she's sorry." I hesitated, not knowing what to say.

"She's hurt me... so many times. I feel like I can't trust her anymore. I gave her what... 2, 3 chances, and she's hurt me." he whimpered.

"Maybe... maybe you just need a break. Just be friends for a while, see how that goes." I offered, hoping that I wouldn't make anything worse.

"Maybe" he agreed.