Jan Dara #Her Untold Story

Part 37

Sy baring di katil sambil menghadap laptop..dari skrin laptop..berketawa sy  berchat dengan Amy..mau masuk minggu ke-3 sy di sini..balik-balik suda kena tanya bila sy mau pulang Sabah

Chat conversation::

Amy : so Ra..how's Sydney so far?
Sy : so far so good..like I told you..this place is awesome..!!sy baru pulang dari Bondi Beach..
Amy : wow!!! You go there alone?
Sy : no..with Cayden..kalau sy pigi sendiri..maybe by now I'm still looking for a taxi or walking back to the hotel
Amy : Cayden???who is that???
Sy : It's a guy I met here..he's an engineer at the hotel I stay..
Amy : How is he Ra?handsome ka?? Hahaa
Sy : Handsome la ba..he's Sabahan..tapi kerja di sini
Amy : So..ada love-love suda ka between kamurang??
Sy : You crazy??mana ada love-love..I just met him 2weeks ago..kau tau kan kalau namanya cinta..tiada dalam kamus hidup sy
Amy : What if this man can change that..for you?
Sy : No Amy...I came here to take a rest..not looking for love
Amy : Dara..I love you like sy own sister..I want you to be happy..move on Ra..there's a sign already ba..
Sy : Lepas pulang Sabah..baru sy move on
Amy : Do you have a picture of him?
Sy : Ada..tapi belum copy pigi laptop..besok la sy kasi tunjuk kau
Amy : Ok Ra.. Ra..I got to go..nanti kalau Avery nampak kita berchat..dia pun mau join..lambat lagi kerja sy mau siap nanti
Sy : Ok Amy..take care ya di sana

Lepas out dari chatroom dengan Amy..sy ambil kamera dan tengok balik gambar-gambar yang sy tangkap sepanjang sy di Sydney..berhenti tangan sy tekan tu button kamera bila muka Cayden muncul di skrin kamera..tiba-tiba ingatan sy kembali kepada kejadian di Bondi Beach..I close my eyes..yes..I still can feel his lips playing around my lips..the way he grabb my ass and squish it..the way his tounge sucking my tounge..

Kring!! Kring!!

Sy buka mata sy dan terus tengok telefon yang berbunyi di sebelah katil..sy tengok saja dengan penuh tanda tanya..kenapa telefon tu tiba-tiba berbunyi?ada wowow ka dalam bilik ni?takkan la Amy yang telefon?aik..?terus sy jadi takut...

Kring!! Kring!!

Berbunyi lagi...perlahan-lahan sy angkat gagang telefon..diam saja..2kali telefon ni berbunyi..mustahil juga ada staff yang main-main telefon cuba mengacau guest kan?

"Sleep already?" Aiii..si Cayden ba pula
"Fuuuh..it's you.." lega sy rasa..sy gosok-gosok dada..serius tadi takut suda sy mau angkat tu telefon. Kedengaran Cayden ketawa..
"Kau fikir siapa tadi?" -Cayden
"Sy fikir wrong number.." sy bilang sambil ketawa "..macam mana kau boleh telefon pigi bilik sy ni?"
"You forget I work here..?" Ni kali sy ketawa..oh iya kan
"I see..jadi kau kacau kawan kau di kaunter reception la ni.." sy bilang,masih lagi ketawa...Cayden diam sekejap "Cayden..you still there?"
"Ya..I'm still here.." perlahan suara Cayden
"Are you ok..?" Kenapa Cayden ni tiba-tiba berubah angin ni..Hurmmm..
"Ya..I'm ok..erm..look..can we meet at the lobby now?I have something to tell you.." ceria balik suara Cayden..
"Now aarr..?"
"Yes..now..I wait you here" sy letak gagang telefon.terus tarik jaket sy dan keluar dari bilik sy..

Terbuka saja pintu lif..nampak suda Cayden sedang bersandar di tiang batu yang besar menunggu sy..senyum saja dia tengok sy keluar dari lif
"Sorry panggil kau turun lewat malam begini.." bilang Cayden..
"It's ok..sy pun belum tidur..baru selesai video call dan chatting dengan kawan tadi.." balas sy sambil tersenyum.Cayden bawa sy pigi tepi kolam renang..kami duduk di kerusi kayu yang ada di sana..
"So..Cayden..you said you have something to tell me..what is it?"
"This friday..if you still here and free..would you like to join me for a dinner?" Berkerut dahi sy..ingatkan apa benda yang dia mau bagitau sy.rupanya mau ajak pigi dinner saja..
"Boleh..tapi sy tiada bawa baju yang sesuai untuk pigi dinner" Cayden angguk-angguk kepala
"Don't worry about that..kita pigi sewa baju untuk kau..it's on me.." Cayden senyum tengok sy..oh gosh..sy teringat balik kejadian di Bondi Beach..sy alihkan pandangan sy ke arah kolam..
"Aurora.."
"Yes..Cayden?"
"Sy minta maaf..pasal tadi.." Cayden tidak tengok sy waktu bercakap..
"Pasal tadi?pasal apa ya?"
"Pasal tadi..di pantai.." sy telan liur..he's talking about it..oh no..apa mau bagi respon sama dia ni?
"Oh..that.." sy ketawa..sounds very awkward..ugh!
"Can you stop laughing...?Aurora?" Suara Cayden tiba-tiba keras..sy terdiam
"I'm sorry Cayden..don't get me wrong if I laugh..I wasn't making fun of you..I just don't know how to react.." sy kasi bagus duduk sy..huh..tadi bilang sorry..tapi tiba-tiba marah..apa masalah dia ni aarr?!
"Everytime you laugh...it remind me of my late wife.." perlahan suara Cayden bercakap..tunduk suda dia "..I'm sorry.." seriously..sy tidak tau mau cakap apa..so I just sit there quitly..kasi biar Cayden layan perasaan dia.
"Ada apa-apa lagi kau mau cakap?it's late already..I kind of sleepy.." sy bersuara..lama kami diam tadi tidak bercakap..
"Ermm..that's all Aurora.." kami berdua berdiri..sama-sama berjalan meninggalkan kawasan kolam..sebelum sy masuk ke dalam lif..Cayden tahan sy..
"Once again Aurora..I'm sorry..sy harap kau tidak terasa atau ambil hati.."
"It's ok Cayden..I understand.." Cayden senyum tengok sy sampai la pintu lif tertutup.

Sampai saja dalam bilik..sy berdiri di tingkap..tengok pemandangan malam melalui cermin tingkap..entah jam berapa baru sy naik ke katil..

I see him smiling at me..perlahan-lahan dia mendekati sy..he kiss my forehead..my nose tip..my lips..so gentle..
"Bryan..?" Sy tengok Bryan duduk di sebelah sy..mimpi ka ini?if it's a dream..please let me dream more..I don't want to wake up..
"I miss you.." Bryan usap rambut sy "..I'm sorry I wasn't there to protect you.."
"What are you talking about Bryan?" Sy duduk bersandar di kepala katil
"I'm talking about everything..everything that I've done to you.. " sy tengok Bryan tunduk saja "..sy malu mau berdepan dengan kau.."
"Kau lebih malu berdepan dengan sy atau kau malu dengan perbuatan kau terhadap sy selama ni?" Sy pegang tangan Bryan..it feel so real..like this is not a dream..like..he real here with me now.
"Cayden is a good man..I understand if you choose him..I want you to be happy Aurora.." sy genggam kuat tangan Bryan.
"It's what everyone want..but no one asking me what I want..but if somebody ask me..what I want..I haven't decide any..yet.." dear God..I really miss him so much..the more I miss him..the more I hate him..perasaan apa ba ni??!!
"Take your time Aurora..whatever make you happy,makes me happy.." Bryan terus peluk sy..

Ngitttt!!!! Ngitttt!!!!

Sy buka mata.. alarm telefon berbunyi..it's getting brighter outside..sy baring menghadap siling atas..Bryan datang dalam mimpi sy..like a sign..but what is it??

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