Old Soul

Simula

Simula

I was never really the kind of woman who'll just cry. Hindi ako nagpapatalo sa kahit ano o sino. I never let anyone feel na kaya nila ako, na mas mataas sila sa'kin.

Ngayon lang... ngayon lang na alam kong simula pa lang talo na ako.... na wala na talaga akong pag-asa.

I cried. I cried so hard for the past seven months na nandito ako sa kulungang ito. I really don't know kung anong mangyayari sa akin. If I'll be able to come home to my family again... or I'll just rot in this hell.

"bitch, still crying huh? What a weakling."

Hindi ko namalayan na may pumasok na pala sa kulungan ko. Kanina pa pala ako nakatulala. Tiningnan ko ang nakakalokong ngiti ng maputing lalaking papalapit sa akin. He's holding a tray full of foods. What's up now?

Agad niyang tinaas ang tray nang mataman ko itong tiningnan.

"Ah, this one? It's for you. Eat this so you'll have energy later.. if you know what I mean," makahulugang sabi ni Timothy sa akin. Sa kutis niya at paraan ng pagsasalita, halata mo na agad na iba ang lahi nito.

Naunawaan ko agad ang sinabi niya. Kung 'di ako nagkakamali, ako na ang susunod. Fuck this life. I should just kill myself. But even that is impossible. I'm all tied up like a useless bitch.

Pagkalapag niya ng tray sa sahig ay agad kong ginalaw ang dalawang paa kong nakatali at buong sikap na iwinaksi iyon. Kung kakainin ko yan ay parang pumayag na rin ako sa gusto nila. And I won't let him feed me.

"Eat that yourself, asshole," I said coldly.

"Ooh, our baby is still as arrogant as before huh," he said while grabbing my hair.

"Let's see later how you'll come and beg for my help"

As if, mamatay muna ako bago mangyari yon. I looked at him with hatred evident in my eyes.

"I'd rather die in hell than call help to an asshole, ugly looking, and thick-faced demon like you," I said and grabbed the opportunity to spit on his face since he's near me.

"The fuck, you bitch!" he screamed and slapped me on the face sa gulat niya.

It stings! I've never been slapped my whole life. Kung hindi lang talaga ako nakatali dito ay kanina ko pa siya natadyakan at nasabunutan sa galit ko.

" How dare you slap my face, you ugly creature!? Just wait til my dad gets me here! I'll make sure you'll be buried in deep hell!"

Ngumiti naman siya nang malademonyo habang pinupunasan ang mukha niyang dinuraan ko.

"Really? Oh, you're not going anywhere you spoiled bitch. Can't you see? Nobody cares about you. Even your so called dad can't find you..and maybe he already gave up finding you huh."

Linapit niya sa may tainga ko ang mukha niya.

"...poor little baby"

Punong puno ng sarcasm at pang-aasar ang mukha niya na hinahaplos na ngayon ang pisngi ko. Pilit kong nilalayo ang mukha ko sa kanya dahil nandidiri ako sa kanya.

I tried to avoid the thought na hindi na ako makikita ni daddy o baka kaya naman ay sumuko na siya sa paghahanap sa akin. I want to ignore what the devil has just said.. pero there's a possibility. It's been seven months.

I don't want to think that they're right.. but dad you're too late now. You can't save me and I hate that I'm regretting the choice that I made seven months ago. I should have gone with him. I should have listened to him.