These Words Scream

The way I feel

I like playing with guns and knives
I like to think about taking my life
Want to jump from the 13th floor
The cut inside my heart is never healing
Hoping for something good every time
But things are just never fine
Always thinking about hanging myself up
Always trying to say enough is enough
But no one ever listens to what I say
They think that all my emotions are just a play
Every time I try to encourage myself
I realize that I truly need some help
I get a reason every day
To become sad, but I just say
Tomorrow will bring something different for me
And I just want people to see
That I'm there for real
But nobody ever understands the way I feel