Scribbled Thoughts
Didn't know I'd want back my childhood so much,
Didn't know we'd all come to this,
Didn't know that the moments I had wished to pass,
Will be the moments that I'll miss,
I lived a decent happy life back then,
Or maybe I wasn't prone to the real world you can say,
But in all those blurred memories,
I had hoped it would never come to this day,
What has the world done to me?
What is this person I've become?
I promise I try everything to pick up my broken pieces,
But I doubt if there is anything that could be done.
I miss the times when my mother gave me morsels of food in my mouth,
Now I find it hard to digest life,
My parents never noticed why I started skipping breakfast,
And ate dinner just in order to survive,
It hurt me when my dad talked about his children's success,
But my name never on his list,
My heart was already breaking,
Now it had crushed down to bits,
Maybe if I had a sister,
I wouldn't had to fight this all alone,
But alas I was the only chosen one,
To fight this war of my own,
I feel like a coward when I tell people,
That the answer is not suicide,
When in reality at least 10 moments pass by,
Where I wish I already had died,
Life can be crazy, right?
I sure know the answer in not death,
But how am I supposed to live life,
When every other moment feels like my last breath?
