These Words Scream

Pain (#1)

I have a pain so deep you'll never see
I Locked it away and hid a key
If I ever really could share it
You wouldn't look at me the same I swear it
I've seen things I shouldn't have to see
But the only one who ever knew was me
I faked a smile everyday
For I couldn't stand for you to see me this way
I buried my emotions deep inside my soul
It's the hate I have that keeps me whole
If I ever truly showed you what's inside
I'd run away fast and quickly hide
No matter where I go these feelings stay inside
All I want to do is close my eyes
It's like an eternal torture that never dies
These voices that fill my head
Telling me I'm way better off dead
This pain of living hurts my heart
Should I have ended it from the start?
It's like when I get home I take off my mask
Faking happiness is nearly an impossible task
But somehow I manage to get by
Going through everyday about to cry
One day maybe it'll be okay
But of course that day is not today
How much blood can I shed
Before I'm lying in the floor dead?
Will this pain ever go away?
Maybe tomorrow but not today.