A crush that has developed into something more
A real crush, filling my heart
I started fantasizing about him
What it would be like
To not have to find excuses to talk to him
To see him
To hear his voice
Look into his eyes
He is responsible for the turmoil in my brain
The spinning of my thoughts
The feeling of dizziness
Nausea, nerves on end
A few days ago
He did the worst thing yet
He touched me
A single touch
Not skin on skin
But skin on clothes
He didn't even mean anything by it
But an hour later
I could still feel the burn
Where his left hand touched my arm through my jacket
How can I get rid of this feeling
It's really starting to drive me insane
Will I ever find someone to help me out of this
I'm a mother for goodness sake
I can't let a man do this to me
Right?
Or are you supposed to feel these butterflies
Rummaging around in your stomach
Someone, anyone, please help me!
