thursday, september 12th @ 16:25
oh my god. i can't believe this happened i can't stop crying. i feel like i'm going to puke and vomit and i feel dizzy right now.
it's niall.
it's his birthday tomorrow and he didn't come to school today. i haven't talked to him since last week and i really wanted to apologize for running out on him. i asked his friends where he was and they all turned silent. one of them told me he was in the hospital for suicide attempt.
hospital.
suicide attempt.
oh my god, i almost threw up right then and there. i felt like the walls were closing in and i couldn't breathe. i cried again. it feels like that's all i do lately. the only person that made school better for me is in a hospital because of a suicide attempt.
i wish i could've stopped him. i wish i was there to tell him that i love him and that i can't live without him. his friends told me he was stable, for now. he tried to hang himself. it made my stomach churn. i couldn't bear the thought of that.
i love him so so so much.
- cassie
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