Playing on broken strings.

chapter 22

I get you when you least expect it.

BE SCARED

From,

You know who.

The fear all becomes too much as I feel my legs begin to go weak and my head start to spin

How did he find out where I was?

I cant believe hes out

What will he do to me when he finds me

I put the key in the door and walk in.

“finally chummy your home where the hell were you?!” Emma asks .

“At work I don’t wanna talk right now” that was all I could say before I walked to my bedroom locked the door and broke down.

I threw my bag across the room and fell onto my bed and just let all my emotions out.

Anger, hurt, fear and sadness.

Everything just came spilling out.

What can I do now?

I need to try and put it to the back of my mind.

Emma and Christian are probably really worried about me.

I attempt to bottle up all my emotion as I change into my pyjamas unlock my bedroom door and walk through to the living where I see Emma and Christian sat watching tv.

“Hey” I say bluntly as I can feel the tension in the room.

“Pippa was that all about” Emma questioned me while turning the volume down on the tv.

“Yeah it is not like you Pip, you know you can tell us everything right?” Christian explained.

“I’m fine now guys thanks just had a really bad day at work I guess it was so busy” I lied don’t get me wrong I felt bad lying directly to their faces but I was doing it for their own safety more than my own.

“Okay okay But Pippa guess who me and Christian saw today in kfc” Emma said a smile now creeping on her face.

“I don’t know a chicken?!” I said laughing at my own terrible joke.

“No we saw Justin!!” she said with glee in her voice.

Shivers went through my whole body with that one word.

He was so close to me again yet so far.

Does he still think of me the way I think of him?

“Oh, how is he?” I said trying to keep my cool.

“Well he is better than what we thought he would be considering everything that’s going on with the news, although he clearly had a hangover he was a complete mess and stunk of alcohol. It is sad because that’s so not like him” Christian said with clear hurt in his voice.

“Yeah I know that was horrible, but he’s still the same person Chris, he didn’t really say much but he asked a lot about you Pippa he wanted to know how you were and what you had been up to. He still cares Pippa he never stopped I think you should try and contact him he is in a really bad place at the moment” Emma said looking me right in the eyes.

Well I guess you could say that makes two of us we are both in bad places, we were so happy when we were together.

“You say that Emma but I am sure he moved on from me ages ago, he will have found someone better” I said not taking my eyes off the floor.