This Is Over (Larry Stylinson fanfic)

Chapter 28

The next day drags I see Harry in class he looks at me but says nothing. I can't help but stare at him. He's hurt me but I can't help it. He's stuck in my head and I just can't escape it. Even though the lies that he's told me I just want him to talk to me... I'm addicted to him.

Mr Cotton aka Michael walks into the room with his phone in hand looking at it as if he's expecting an important call, he closes his eyes and sighs putting it in his pocket.

"How is your girlfriend?" A girl asks him he looks at her and gives her a small smile

"She's better then she was" he says I can hear a few girls talking about how they wish that they were his girlfriend- which I wouldn't mind being his boyfriend he is drop dead gorgeous.

"Right, do you want to right a paragraph about the last chapter we read of Stormbreaker" he says turning his attention to his computer

Niall taps my shoulder passing me a piece of paper which had been folded 'I'm sorry H x' was hand written in a black biro pen. My heart flutters at the message but my head had other ideas my hand scrunches the note up and throws it into the bin. I close my eyes and put my head in my hands. I want to forgive him but I just can't. It would make me look weak. And I'm not weak.

"What did it say?" Niall asks I look up at him and shake my head

"He hurt me Ni. And he thinks sorry sloves it" I laugh to myself "He's got to be joking" I shake my head

"Maybe you should give him a chance to explain, I know he's in the wrong. But just talk things through with him, find out what's going on?" Niall says, he always makes it seem like there's light at the end of the tunnel.

"Maybe, it wouldn't hurt. As long as his resent conquest isn't going to be anywhere near. I've seen enough of him, and I've only seen him once" I sigh

"He was his first love. Nothing comes close to your first love, I'm sure he'll figure out why he left him and he'll want you back" Niall says but then he realises what he's just said putting his hand over his mouth

"Yeah, I'm second best. I'd rather steer clear then be anyones second best" my head falls back on to the table

I feel Harry's gaze fall upon me again, I turn around and face him "What the hell do you want! " I shout at him

He looks at me like a rabbit in the headlights, shocked by my outburst.

"I'm sorry okay? Can we just talk?" Harry says quitely the attention of the class has turned to me and Harry

"Talk? Bloody hell! Why the hell would I want to talk to someone like you! You lying cheating nerd! I never should have changed for someone like you!" I shout tears rolling down my face

"That's enough!" Michael shouts over the top of me "Louis, Harry go to my office now, I'll just get a substitute teacher to cover while I sort what ever the hell this is" he snaps

I close me eyes as I stand up. Now the whole school will know everything by the end of the day. Great. I walk out of the room and start walking towards Michael's office. I can hear Harry following close behind.

I take a seat in the office, Harry sits in the chair next to me neither of us saying a word to the other. I see the door open in the corner of my eye

"What the bloody hell was that for?" Michael shouts "Why do it in the middle of my class when I'm in the middle of a lesson?" He asks shaking his head looking at me

"Just speaking my mind" I bit my lip leaning back into the chair

"I don't care if you were just speaking your mind! You could have done that after class" Michael shouts

Harry looks at me "I'm sorry, Louis. I'm sorry that I lied to you... I just don't know what I want at the moment"

I laugh "you don't know what you want? Well I can see clearly that your ex is what you want. I was just there for you drag your shit along with!"

"You mean so much more than that to me. After what we went though... I like you Louis. I always have even when you put me in hospital I just couldn't get you out of my mind" Harry says putting his hand on knee

"Be honest with me, am I the only one you want?" I ask him putting him on the spot

"I know that I keep these feelings to myself, like I don't need nobody else...
but you're not the only one on my mind If I'm being honest" he says with a tear running down his face. I knew that he had feelings for his ex still I push his hand off my knee "you said I should be honest"

"I really thought you were different Harry... but it turns out your just like everyone I've dated. They always find someone better or get back with their ex's. What's wrong with me? What is wrong with me?" I feel myself start to shake. Everyone leaves me for someone better... or they leave me because of who I am. I'm never going to be anyones first choice I'm always their last. I'm fucked up, I've faded, I'm so complicated.

"There's nothing wrong with you Lou" Harry says "Right now I don't know who I want. You've always been my first choice, I have never stopped loving you. Even if I decide in the end that I can't be with you, I still want you in my life. I don't know what I want for myself yet Louis. Just don't think I've forgotten about you"

"Just don't give up on me yet" I tell him and he smiles

"Right on that note, I think you two are free to leave" Michael says