I'm trying - short poems

sometimes we replay in my head

I loved you more than I loved my self,
And that hurt me more,
Than I could ever hurt you,

When you smiled,
I couldn't help but smile too,
But it wouldn't last for long,

When you hugged me,
I would cry at the thought,
That this was it,

When you called me,
We would talk for hours on end,
But the whole time, I knew she was in your bed,

When we walked,
You would point out all the beautiful things,
But you never pointed out me,

When we kissed,
You would embrace me like I kept you warm,
Yet you would not show me any warmth?

When we said our goodbyes,
I said I loved you,
But you only said, "goodbye,"

When we fought,
You wouldn't fight with me,
Instead, you would fight the urge to fight me,

When we needed some time apart,
I made sure to be thankful for the good times,
But all you did was spend your time,

And then... we, would more often than not become, you

When you said she was just a friend,
I looked into your eyes and they glistened with truth,
But I could not say the same about your mouth,

When you cheated,
We wouldn't talk to each other for days,
But I knew you could possibly go for weeks,

When you slapped me,
You saw the pain on my face,
But I saw the relief in yours,

When you said you were done,
I couldn't agree more,
But I thought that this had happened before,

I thought we broke up,
I thought we moved on,
I thought we were done,

You are still in my mind,
In my heart,
And the reason behind my all my tears.