What It's Like to Be 'Britney'.

It Felt Different.

Here I was back in my hometown Kentwood, Louisiana. It felt so good to be at home. Well you know what they say? 'Home Sweet Home'. I kind of felt like the whole recording process was a bit much for me as it was so rushed, but of course... Me only being 15, I stayed professional so I held back. With this whole situation going on, I thought I was very mature and profound about it all. Anyway where was I? Oh yes, back in Kentwood, Louisiana. Me and my mom arrived back and it all of sudden just felt so different - I was kind of unsure if this was a good or a bad thing to be honest. I mean, my dream of becoming a star like my idol Madonna was coming true... but for now I just wanted to keep it personal and private from everybody. I just kept getting asked questions on "How my experience was?" and "What are you going to do if it all gets too much?" I felt as if I weren't really prepared for such questions from everybody because I didn't feel like it was the right thing to do, telling people my personal stuff when it clearly has nothing to do with them. I mean, if I become that big of a celebrity; I will never have anything private so I definitely think I should take advantage of the privacy I still own before this does happen.

But overall, the experience was amazing and totally nothing like I had ever imagined. Out of this world. Spontaneous. It was also complicated from time to time too but I mean come on, if being in the studio isn't complicated while having fun... are you even doing your job properly? Seriously. I was so confident with this work. Somehow I managed to keep my excitement to myself because I didn't want to share any details of the album. And yes, not even a sneak preview for my friends either. Haha. We recorded way over twenty songs for the album but we only shortlisted fourteen of them. And they all made the cut for the album. Over time I actually got more jitterbugs because I knew that the time was eventually getting closer. I know I was still at home, but I was so ready. More ready than ever before. I get this chill when I talk about it with my mom, it feels great.

I think I was getting a little too over excited though, how did I know this would really work out for me? I hadn't even begun on the album art, nor had chose my debut single or actually figured out the album name. I needed to be myself, I needn't worry if people don't like me for who I am... they shouldn't pay attention to me or what am I doing then should they? I'm going to make sure I keep that good reputation me and my mom have been working hard for. Seeing as it's took me - what it seems - forever to get here, I need to work hard and stay put. I ain't doing this for no reason. I definitely knew what I was doing. I hope people don't think that I'll change because of fame... I'll always be the same person I am now, Britney Jean Spears. The person who they can't take seriously unless they're truly dedicated to something they have a certain passion for. I've sacrificed a lot of things to get here, those thing are my personal life, my family, my friends and who I really am.

It's time for me to figure out all of the important stuff I need for my debut album.