Obsession

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"How did you find out he was on drug's? Or did you already know?" The officer questions me.

"Um I went into his room and saw the drugs on his desk that's when I decided to call the police"

"Right so what were you doing going into his room at 3 or 4 in the morning that is around the time you called the police station"

Shit more lies I have to come up with. I don't know what it is but I can't bring myself to spill out all of the truth Jiyong would get into much more trouble. Then again it's not like he is in a good situation anyways, because me.

"I couldn't sleep, I went into his room to see if he would get up and talk with me until I got tired"

"Okay before we take you back to the city is there anything you need to grab any of your belongings?"

"Yeah a couple of things"

"Okay we will wait for you down here"

I get up and walk upstairs to go into my room and grab my shoes. The clothes that Jiyong got for me can stay I don't need them, just grabbing a jacket from the closet I slip that on.

I walk into the room that was Jiyong's and look around. I walk over to his desk. My eyes scan the surface and I see his necklace with the key, my memory going back to the time I first saw it around his neck. I decide to grab it and put it in my pocket.

I also notice one of the larger drawers is open a bit and I see a black and white object through the crack. Kneeling down I open the drawer all the way and see a composition notebook and tons of uncapped pens.

"Are you almost done?" One of the officers yell up the stairs startling me.

"Y-Yeah one second"
My curiosity gets the best of me as I stand up and jog to my room to get a small bag running back to Jiyong's room grab the notebook and put it into my bag.

I stand up and walk out of his room and down the stairs meeting the officers. We walk out of the house and I get into the car looking at the place where I have had the worst memories and also some good ones.

This place where Jiyong hit me and pulled my hair, where I saw him throwing up and weak. I see the image of Jiyong in my face screaming at me, but then I see us sitting outside talking, smiling. Sitting on the couch watching movies.

I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I first met Jiyong and accepted the job. Who would have known G Dragon the kpop idol that I worked for would kidnap me and say he was in love. I can't wrap my head around the fact this happened. It scares me that reality is Jiyong took me, he hit me and screamed at me. While in this house for some reason I got used to it and we were like a secret I forgot that the outside world existed. God I don't know what to think. I hate him but I can't stop remembering the good moments we had.
I don't know what to do with myself. I have to move on.

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9AM

•Vanna•

Why is the sun so beautiful today? Why does the sun have to shine so bright? I feel darkness around me.

The officers took me to the police station after leaving the house earlier to question me some more and I waited around a lot before they dropped me off at my old, cold apartment. It feels so unfamiliar.
I should be happy I'm free and away from Jiyong but I'm not.

•G Dragon•

"Drugs!!! What the fuck were you thinking Jiyong!"
My ears still ring from YG's voice. What did I expect? He is pissed. Right when I got to the police station they got a judge to see me and just like that 4 years in jail, it was suppose to be 5 but my lawyer got one year off.

Here I am sitting in this dark cell all alone once again. How did I let myself get like this? I kidnapped my assistant, but Vanna didn't tell that to the police and I didn't say anything either but I'll always know I did it. If I could tell Vanna how sorry I am I would pour my heart out to her and apologize. I ruined her life. Fuck I probably traumatized her.

•Vanna•

Why do I feel so helpless? Why do I feel like I can't live life now? These thoughts running through my head as I sit on the floor of my living room.
I grab my bag of my table and pour the contents out. I stare at the notebook. I grab it and open to a random page.

      Vanna why did you leave? What did I do? I stare at you with love and you stare at me with hate. I can't help my feelings, I can't help it. She makes me feel different, happy. I can't help but to feel comfortable around her. Why did she leave like that?

My eyes start to water as I read. This must be his journal. He must have wrote this after we slept together for the first time. I shouldn't read it but my curiosity gets the best of me and before I know it I'm turning to another page.

       I feel like I'm falling deep down a dark hole that keeps dragging me no matter how I try to fight my way to the surface. POISON! my life, my thoughts. I can't help but to think poisonous thoughts. What would it feel like? DYING... slowly, slowly, my eyes shut. Faster, faster my heart beats. Tighter, tighter the rope is. Slowly, slowly I can't breathe.

I shut the the notebook only two pages in. I can't read his personal thoughts, the things he has gone through. It makes me feel like it's my fault, if only I stayed he could be better.
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I have gotten a shit ton of reads on this story and I am so grateful to the readers who enjoy my G Dragon fanfic!♡ I am so sorry that this update took forever. I was busy with school but I just graduated and I will be updating a lot more!