Friends Don't Kiss

Chapter 2-Do I Wanna Know?

---2 MONTHS EARLIER---

"So, you wanna go anywhere over spring break?" Hayley asked as she pulled her pants up and grabbed her top.

"I don't know... maybe we could go camping or to the beach?" I half asked. 

"Whatever you wanna do goldilocks" she said.

"Okay then, firecracker" I joked as I pecked her cheek and sat back down on the bed. Hayley sat down next to me and watched as I looked up places to go on my phone. 

"This place sounds fun" she said pointing to one of the campsite places. "I could bring a tent, pack some food and other things. We could also have some more fun and not have to worry about being too loud-" she was cut off by a knock on the door.

"Hey, Logan! Your friend Lynn is here to see you" I could hear my mom say. Hayley and I looked at each other with worried faces.

"Window" we both said simultaneously. She quickly climbed out and I walked over to the door hoping I didn't have any visible hickeys on my neck. I opened the door and Lynn was already right there. 

"Hey" she said with a small smile.

"What's up Gunn?" I asked.

"Not much just bored so I thought I'd drop by" she said.

"Cool, wanna go out or hang here?" I asked.

"Hanging out here would be pretty cool" she said.

"Alright" I said moving out of the way so she could walk in. 

"Woah" she said picking up the drawing I did last night.

"What?" I asked.

"I didn't know you could draw" Lynn said.

"It was just a quick scribble" I laughed nervously taking the drawing hoping she didn't realize it was Hayley.  "Do you draw?" I asked. She shrugged.

"Sometimes. I really like music though" She said. I nodded and folded up the page while setting it down next to the keys on my nightstand. Keys? Oh no... I looked at the window and saw Hayley pointing to them. She quickly ducked down after she saw I noticed it too.

"I wish I could do music, but I'm nowhere near talented enough for that" I said trying to stall. Lynn shrugged to herself as she looked around my room. 

"You never know until you try" she said simply. "Actually, I wanted to talk to you about something" Lynn said nervously. I saw Hayley's head pop up again.

"Well, seeing as how nervous you are... I'm gonna go to the bathroom. You can think about what you want to say completely. Sorry, I don't want to seem rude I just really have to go" I laughed.

"No worries" Lynn said quietly. I motioned my head at Hayley while Lynn was looking down.

"Make yourself at home" I said casually and stuffing the keys into my pocket noiselessly. Lynn sat down on the edge of my bed while I made my way to my bathroom. After closing the door I slid open the small window near the shadow and set the keys on the sill. I saw Hayley's hand reach for them. 

"Thank god you noticed. I'll see you later babe" Hayley said quietly.

"Love you" I said. I heard no response. Maybe she just didn't hear me. I flushed the toilet and turned on water from the sink for awhile before turning it back off. I crossed my fingers it would be convincing enough. When I walked out I sat next to Lynn.

"So... this is really weird for me to say. I know that you're already taken and everything, but I really like you." She said.

"Lynn..."

"Can I please just say this?" She pleaded. I pursed my lips before nodding. "I haven't known you for that long, but no one has really cared about my well being as much as you have these past couple months. That alone draws me to you. At the same time I still see more than that. I see the way you're eyes light up when you're happy, or how you gently push your hair to the side when you're nervous. The way the bumps raise on your skin when you're cold. Everything. I am obsessed with you. I hate that I'm like this typical head over heels high school girl in an impossible situation. This entire mini speech I'm saying rob tou is so cheesy on so many levels, but I just can't help myself around you for some reason. I'm ready to just me completely myself around you and part of that is being honest about how I see you. I don't want to push you away. Even if you don't feel anywhere near the same about me" Lynn said. I couldn't feel that she had been waiting to say this for awhile. 

"Lynn-" I was cut off by her lips. I didn't know how to respond. She wasn't a bad kisser, but she wasn't the one I loved kissing. I was hoping she'd pick up on my unresponsive behavior as a no, and eventually she did. When she finally pulled back I saw Hayley crying as she watched the scene unfold. She knew she couldn't do anything about this. I had no fucking idea what to do. I loved having Lynn as my friend. She was an amazing girl, and I want her in my life. Just not the way she wanted to be in mine.

"I gotta go" Lynn said standing up and heading straight to the door with her head down. I reached out and grabbed her hand pulling her back toward me and into a hug. After the initial shock she leaned into me and started crying. "I'm so sorry" she said over and over again.

"Lynn, we'll always be friends okay? This isn't gonna change that" I said letting go. She wiped her eyes and gave me a sad smile.

"Okay" her voice cracked and my heart sunk. I was hurting my friend and I couldn't stop it. "I  need to go and think for a bit... I'll see you some other time" she said as she walked out of my room. About a half a minute later Hayley crawled back through the window with red eyes and an angry look on her face.

"Who the fuck does she think she is?!?" Hayley exclaimed.

"It's not a big deal Hayley she's only a friend that was confused" I said.

"Confused my ass she knows you have a girlfriend! I'm your fucking girlfriend!" She yelled.

"It isn't gonna happen again I told her I only want to be friends with her" I said quietly being slightly afraid of the way Hayley was acting. I put my hand on her shoulder and she shrugged it off.

"What the hell was that hug for anyways? Do you like her? Why the hell did you let her kiss you?!?" She shouted even louder pacing fast around my room.

"I didn't kiss her back if that's what you're implying Hayley" I said getting slightly annoyed. 

"Well you most certainly didn't push her away" she said bitterly. 

"I didn't want to hurt her feelings more than I already had okay? She's my friend and she's been through shit too. You don't get to judge how I treat my friends" I said raising my voice.

"I do if you're going around kissing all of them!" She said defensively.

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?" I said my voice cracking.

"Never mind... fuck this" she sighed sitting on the edge of my bed putting her head in her hands.

"Hayley, talk to me" I said my voice cracking. I sat next to her and she stood up. 

"You betrayed me, Logan. You're mine and you let her kiss you" she said.

"And it'll never happen again. I don't like Lynn that way and you know that" I said.

"Do I? It didn't look like you were hating it... that's the worst part about all of this" Hayley said.

"it isn't even that big of a deal Hayles" I said. "You're being rediculous" I said.

"I know" she whispered. "It isn't a big deal to you... but I'm really hurt. You're defending her and totally invalidating my feelings. What about me?" She said quietly. I hadn't even thought about it like that... she pursed her lips and looked away just as a tear fell from her eyes. "Don't come after me" she said, her voice breaking along with my heart. She pushed past me and out of the door of my room. It happened so fast... Did that really happen? Did she just break up with me?