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At first I think he's joking. I think I would know if my best friend was gay. Wouldn't I? Maybe I didn't even notice. I wonder if I am the only one who didn't know. "Does Izzy know?", I ask. He nods. That makes sense. He tells Izzy everything. I just really can't believe it. I'm not mad. I have a feeling about it but I don't know what the feeling is. Am I sad about it? Happy? Relieved? I don't know why I would be relieved though. I'm about 99.9% sure I'm straight. I like girls. I'm attracted to them. But, am I attracted to Alec?
"Look Jace I know it's a lot to take in. My parents don't know and neither does Max. I thought you should be the second person to know. I was just so scared of how you would react", he starts. I smile reassuringly at him. He fakes a smile back but I see a tears escaping his eyes.
"Alec I'm not mad", I say while going in for a hug. He is so warm and he smells soooooo good!!!! STOP IT RIGHT NOW JACE! You are not gay! You like girls. You once hooked up with Isabelle remember? Do I really like Alec? Like really really? No that's absolutely crazy!!! I smile at Alec and let him go. I say my goodbye and head up to my room.
I go to the compartment that's beside my bed and open it up. I find a picture of me and Alec acting like idiots. That's when it all seemed normal. I still love Alec as a brother but is there something else? I try and get the thought out of my mind and try to take a nap.
I finally doze off. I have a dream that Alec and I are sitting on the side of a river laughing and making jokes about demons. When all of a sudden he leans over and kisses me. Fire works go off and it was the best kiss ever.
Not really a cliff hanger but woooo!!! Trust me...It will get better. Give it time!!!! You all are beautiful and perfect and everything and I will update tomorrow!! I might even surprise you without another update. I cant sleep :( SEE YOU NEXT UPDATE!!!!
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Like a 'brother' (A Jace and Alec fanfic)
FanfictionWhat happens when Alec Lightwood confesses to his best friend that he is gay? Will he find out that Jace feels the same way or will Jace totally ignore him for all of eternity?