Aeipathy

०३|Vague discomfort

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"The nagging feeling in the back of her mind.”

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It was exceptionally cold that night and it rained heavily. Aarush couldn't sleep well with all those chaotic thoughts running through his mind again and again. Still, there was no specific beginning or and end of them.

The next morning, Aarush left for work in a bad mood, blaming the lack of sleep and his own luck on the way through a heavy traffic because of the heavy rain for being late.

Things weren't normal, it wasn't like their usual fight at all. The said things were very hurtful and very meaningful at the same time, like never before. In a fit of anger the temporary resolution of never coming back here or contacting him last night had evaporated away as soon as the morning had chirped in.

None of her decisions were headstrong enough as long as she thought about not being able to see Meera at the end of it all. The rationality said, she doesn't really have much time anyway and as long as Aarush doesn't know about it she can visit Meera as long as she could.

Later that day, Mihika had cautiously hopped inside Malhotra abode again, not able to stop herself from doing it. She was upset with him as well as herself at the same time. She couldn't be at peace after leaving in a haste yesterday and she couldn't control herself from coming back here to visit Meera either.

In such a short time. As a baby, it's pretty normal for Meera to like spending time with people who play with her or as long as she's comfortable with them around but for Mihika, it was really surprising how attached she had grown to Meera in such a short amount of time. Giving up on seeing that doll-like baby for the sake of her fight with Aarush seemed very childish.

Maybe after marriage it wouldn't be as frequent as it is now, but sometimes, on the weekends or during festivals it wasn't impossible. It wasn't like Aarush and Abhinav weren't friends after all, there were going to be many opportunities of meeting him and Meera.

Aarush was right, she wouldn't be able to take time out of her 'happily married' life for them after marriage as easily as she could now and she didn't want to lose the limited time she had while brooding over a mere fight.

Words have weight and some are just too heavy to handle or ignore for the sake of your own delusional belief. Mihika wasn't stupid. She had a hunch about whatever Aarush had blurted out yesterday but she knew she couldn't let herself give recognition to the meaning behind his anger and frustration. No, as long as she could ignore it all, everything would stay the same as it had always been. Aarush was and will always be her best friend and she told herself she didn't really have to think anymore about this matter.

She had already missed too much in the last few years. Aarush used to be a part of every day of her life but now it feels like they've grown way too apart and the sudden invisible distance that has grown between them is too much for her own liking.

There wasn't a single day Mihika did not think about Aarush in one or another way. The past one year, especially the last few months, were really dreadful in a way if she was being honest. The sudden cut of connection from everywhere made her feel like she had been abandoned by Aarush. No matter what happens, you don't just ghost someone so close to you out of nowhere. Mihika had many thoughts about this matter- things she wasn't sure if they were even valid.

Silly little things, even some jokes can hurt people. What Aarush had said yesterday was too heavy on her mind but she didn't want to keep dwelling over that for the sake of her own peace of mind at the moment. Her life was already too chaotic right now and letting this matter hover over her was going to be like a fatal attack because what if she ended up realizing and accepting something she had been avoiding for years?