you ruin me. | leafy cynical

c l o u d e d.

nialls p.o.v

it's been a few days since i "forced" calvin to go to the botanical garden with me. i'm glad i forced him though, i think he's a little happier then before.

i wanna take him out more, but i don't know whether i want to take him out as a friend or something more.

i don't know if i like him or the idea of being with him.

i hate it.

i should talk to him about it,

but,

it's not something i can bring up easily and could possibly ruin the comfort we have between each other, couldn't hurt to try though. next time, possibly.

calvins p.o.v

it was fun with niall the other day but, i can't stop thinking about it. i'm sure of my feelings for him, and i'm sure of his. they aren't mutual.

i almost told him how i felt. thank god i didn't. although maybe i should, next time.

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i'm aware this is short, apologies, there's this thing called writers block i'm sure you've heard of it. well yeah i'm crap at writing and have no like motivation to write this. maybe soon i'll write the rest, possibly later tonight.

adios, for now.