you ruin me. | leafy cynical

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\\PREVIOUSLY ON SUPERNATURal// haha I'm funny shh

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he breathed out deeply, god it was hot.

i started swinging on the swing.

i love you niall

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Nialls P.o.v

calvin really enjoyed the scenery but i spotted the swing and decided to grab his hand and drag him towards it. i let go once we were at it and he had a tint of pink on his face probably because i dragged him.

i exhaled deeply. (?)

calvin started swinging on the swing a few moments after i dragged him towards it, i knew he'd like this place; he seemed a bit, uh well down i guess i don't know. i knew he was having fun though.

Calvins P.o.v

i started swinging on the swing.

i love you, niall.

i stop swinging

fuck, fuck, fuck. did i say that aloud? fuck. i fucked up again.

niall looks up at me. he doesn't say anything. he heads towards a nearby bench.

did he hear that? or did i say it in my head, fuck i don't know.

the only thoughts running through my mind now are--

how can i kill myself? is my ceiling fan high enough and is the rope long enough to make my suffocation easier? what if i overdosed instead, what if i just popped some bleach shots actually;

ey thats pretty good.

Nialls P.o.v

calvin pulls to a stop on the swing, i thought he was going to say something but he didn't. i walk over to a bench nearby because I'm tired of standing. calvin doesn't start swinging until maybe three or four minutes after i sit down, i wonder whats up.

might as well ask him otherwise curiosity will be the death of me. i begin walking over to him and his swinging has slowed down almost to a stop but not quite, he seems really out of it right now, am i overlooking something? did i miss something i don't know.

"oi mate, you good?"

"u uh yeah fine."

wow that was very convincing.

"here, come with me."

i don't wait for an answer as it it wasn't exactly a question. i grab his hand and begin dragging him to the nearest cafe.

he doesn't resist so i just continue dragging him.

" you know, i can't walk by myself right?"

"yeah m8, i know, i'll let go fo-"

"well you don't have to, its your choice."

"well aren't you indecisive" ( legit me )

"fuck up"

a few moments later~

We're at the café now & I stopped us at the entrance so I could catch my breath and so could he, I still don't let go of his hand, not sure why but my hand is more comfortable in his hand than my own pockets and its like his small slim hands fit perfectly in mine. Fuck that's a little gay.

"ready to go in?"

"um yeah"

I drag him in to the café and take us towards an empty booth table thing. ( idk wtf its called. ) I let go of his hand.

"sit here, I'll get us some coffee"

"I don't wan-"

"im getting you coffee fuckin 'ell"

I walk over to the counter and order us both cappuccinos. Now all that's left is to wait. Which didn't take too long because it was done practically after a minute, I take two sugar sachets and a popstick to stir our beverages and walk over to calvin.

"niall, I don't even like cappuccinos."

"just try it fgt."

"fuck sake, fine."

He drinks it.

"okay maybe I jumped to conclusions about not liking cappuccinos"

"told you so."

"yeah you did, anyways niall, why are you being so nice to me today? like the fuck, you're never this nice "

i think i might like you

"I don't have a reason I just felt like being nice" ( mm girl just tell him smh. )

"yeah yeah, whatever."
"k"

"ouch I got k'd"

"soz not soz, anyways lets go back now, niall.

"fine, always have to ruin the fun smh"

after I told calvin I wasn't gay, and we could be friends still why did I turn out this way. fuck sake.

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whaddup its ya boy pyrozella. anywayssss I've updated, wow improvement good job me, I'm actually managing school well this year which means i have more time to update. i want to join my schools volleyball team but that might mean less time for me to update so. ya enjoy this trash. I'm sorry this is shit but its the best i can do lol.

adios amigos.