A Deadly Attraction Not So Deadly

Chapter 7

*Diggy P.O.V*

"C'mon, pick up, pick up, pick up." I've been calling YN and every time, I got voicemail. Of course, I left messages. It was like I was having a conversation with her damn answering machine or something. I even called Jasmine and she said she wasn't with her. She had me worried. She's been gone for over 5 hours now and it's getting dark out. She had me pacing like a dog chasing it's tail man. I know she upset but damn. She's overreacting. "Russ, you got her," I asked. "Nah, I just texted her though," he replied. "Maybe we should go look for her," he suggested. "Um, yeah. But can you stay just in case she comes home?" "Sure thing." I picked up my car keys and headed for the door. Just as I reached to open it, the knob turned and in came YN. She paused and looked up at me. None of us said a word. We just stared. There were so many thoughts going through my head right now. I mean, I'm relieved that she's okay but at the same time, I'm pissed. "Where the hell have you been, YN," I said finally breaking the silence. She didn't say anything. She just shut the door and walked away. I know she heard me talking to her. "YN!" She kept walking like she didn't even hear me. She was heading upstairs when Russy stepped in front of her. "YN, I know you heard Diggy. Where were you," he asked her with sincerity in his voice. She took a few seconds, but answered "out." Oh so she can answer him? Okay then. "I know you're upset, but you had us worried. And Dan was goin crazy over here worried that-" "Russy," she interrupted. "I'm fine, okay? I'm sorry I had y'all worried but I had to get away, to think, to clear my head. As you can see, I am just fine. Now, excuse me." With that, she walked passed him and went upstairs. "She's really upsetting me, Russ. I swear, I can't with her right now," I said pacing again and trying my best to calm down before going up there. "I know you're upset. Just try to calm down," he said taking a seat on the couch again. "Just talk to her." I stopped pacing, looked up the staircase and sighed. "Okay," I said as I headed upstairs. I took my time walking up there. On my way, I counted from one to ten, then ten to one. I'm really trying to stay calm. After what happened earlier, I just wanna stay calm and not get...physical again. I honestly didn't wanna do that. I know I hurt her wrist and hurting her, in any way, is the last thing I wanna do. I didn't even expect to get like that. I just...I don't know what happened. I was pissed, but that's no excuse. I feel terrible for that.

I finally made it upstairs. I approached the door and took a deep breath before walking in. "YN," I said stepping in. No answer. She wasn't even in the room. She wasn't in the bathroom either. I walked down the hall to her room. I opened to door and there she was on the bed watching TV and talking to someone on the phone. "YN, can we talk please," I asked walking over to her bed. She ignored me and kept talking. "Jaz, what you just said made no sense," she said laughing. I sat on the bed and looked at her. She didn't even look at me. "YN," I said trying to get her attention again. I was ignored. This went on for another minute. "YN, I know you hear me." "Hold on," she finally looked at me and said "& I know you see me on the phone Diggy. Can you leave me alone please? Close the door on your way out," she said before going back to her conversation. "Hello? Yeah, I'm sorry abou-" I took her phone from her. "Jazmine, she'll call you back," then I hung up. "Diggy!" She was reaching for her phone so I put it in my pocket and just stared at her for a few seconds. She rolled her eyes and got up. She tried to walk out but I ran in front of her and shut the door. "Nah, you ain't leavin. Not until we work things out. Now have a seat." She made a face and folded her arms. She hated being told what to do. She didn't move so I picked her up. "Diggy, put me down," she yelled. I put her on the bed and stood in front of her. "What the hell is up w/ you puttin your hands on me today?! You've gotten aggressive with me and I don't like it! You better change that quick, fast, & in a hurry," she yelled. "Now, give me my phone," she said reaching into my pocket. "No." I moved her hand away and that made her get even more upset. "So, it's okay for you to take my phone, and end my conversation? But if I would've done that, I wouldn't hear the end of it." "YN, I-" she interrupted. "So not only is trust a one way street with you, but respect is to?" "YN, I'm really not in the mood to fight with you okay? After spending all those hours going out of my mind worrying about you, & whether or not you're okay, I don't have the energy for it. I don't wanna fight anymore. I just wanna talk to you and work things out calmly. Can we do that please," I asked sitting next to her. "Calmly? So, do you wanna hold on to my other wrist now? Because thats what you did last time and you didn't seem calm until after you basically stopped my blood circulation. Remember?" I looked away and sighed. "YN, I'm sorry okay? I-" "yeah, that makes it so much better Diggy." I was getting annoyed. "Listen, I didn't come in here to argue with you but it seems like that's what you want! At least I'm trying! I'm tryna make things better, & you won't even give me a chance! You're in here ignoring me, and when you do talk to me, I get an attitude from you! I know you're pissed off and I know it was wrong for me to put my hands on you like that but I'm sorry, YN! I'm not proud of it. I never wanna hurt you. I love you." It went silent for maybe a minute. We both took a deep breath & I spoke again. "You still think about the bet and you question if I love you but babe, believe me," I looked up at her before continuing. "I love you more than you'll ever know." She was quiet. I used my finger and gently lifted her head. "I know I put you through a lot. Sometimes when I think about all the pain you went through because of me, I wish I never asked you out because then you wouldn't have gotten hurt as much as you did. You've been rapped, drugged, and beaten and you still stayed with me. You're the strongest person I know. You're my ride or die and I appreciate you always being here for me and always holding me down. Then, other times I think about it and I wish I would've met you earlier. Maybe my life wouldn't have been the way it was. I mean, just look at how much you've changed it. I'm no longer in a gang and I'm reunited with my parents again. You've made me so happy and you made my life so much better. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, baby. And when you asked me if I really love you, it just broke my heart that you even have to question my love for you." I took her hand and kissed it. "I love you soo much YN. There are no words to explain how much." I wiped the tear drop that rolled down her face and sat closer to her to hug her. "I'm sorry, babe. For what happened earlier...for everything. But I do truly love you. & I know you're still mad about the knife. I wasn't gonna use it unless I had to which would be if Ernesto came near you again but I promise I won't use that or any other weapon. You've shown me that I'm better than that. I won't do anything to get me into trouble again." She looked up at me. "You promise?" I smiled at her, kissed her forehead and replied "I promise." She smiled and continued hugging me. "I love you YN." "I love you too, Daniel." We stayed like that for a while. It was nothing but silence and love in the room. "So you comin back in our room," I asked as she raised up ending the hug. "Or do you still need some time alone? I'll understand if you still wanna be alone." "I'll come back," she said smiling. I stood up and reached for her hand. She took mine and we walked out together. "Oh, here's your phone." I took it out of my pocket and gave it to her. "Thanks." I was about to walk out to take a shower when I remembered my main concern. "Wait." I turned back to her. "Where were you?" "I just went for a drive, then pulled over at this park." "Oh, okay. I'm just happy you're okay. But don't ever scare me like that again." She smiled at me. "I won't." I smiled back. "You promise?" She nodded. "I promise." I kissed her, then headed to the bathroom. I'm so happy to have YN in my life. She's a blessing and she makes my life worth living. I love her so much. I don't know what I'd do without her.