Tell Me I'm A Screwed Up Mess

Chapter 3

"not much of a talker hey?" i heard him say. i laughed awkwardly and went to dry my hands but i couldn't find a towel. i looked at Liam. 

"uhmm… do you have huh.."-

"towel?" he said cutting me off 

"yeh.." i mumbled quietly 

"you know, you shouldn't be so shy, we don't bite" Liam said leading me into the hallway and handing me a towel from the cupboard 

"too hard" I heard Louis say cheekily from the lounge. I giggled as Liam rolled his eyes 

"thanks" i smiled and walked back into the lounge room plunking myself next to Harry 

"you can't hide behind Harry forever you know!" Liam called back walking deeper into the house. 

"yeah Kara, you gotta speak up for yourself buddy! Harry won't always be there to do all the talking" Niall said with a mouthful of left overs 

" Yeah Kara, i don't remember you being this quiet" Harry said looking at me 

"things change after 8 years Harry" i said looking at him 

"Fair call, but still! open up a little! converse, we know like nothing about you!" Zayn said looking over at me. Niall Harry and Louis all nodded in agreement 

okay i'll start when i moved to New York, all i wanted to do was fit in. everyone ignored me. no one wanted to be my friend. i've been alone for 8 years. i have felt so unloved and locked myself away in my room to stop the torture, the hate and hurt. my dad left me saying i'll be a failure and never succeed in life. he said he didn't love me. i've become suicidal and socially awkward, i don't like making new friends in fear that they too will leave and not care about me either. Hence why i don't speak much. but from the story you would've guessed that 

"theres not much to say" i replied 

"well what happened while you were in New York? how was school n stuff?" Harry asked interested 

"ehh, not that interesting, just hung out with friends and shopping and school n stuff" i said shrugging my shoulders. Louis faked a yawn and snore.

"Louis don't be rude" Zayn scolded. Louis pouted at Zayn and then smiled cheekily. I have a feeling this boy is going to get on my nerves. 

"well in that case, lets go do something interesting shall we?" Harry said and smiled showing his huge dimples 

"okay, i'll go home while you boys go out" i smiled and got up. as i went to walk out Harry hugged me from behind his chin rested on my shoulder. 

"no you're coming with us silly" he said as he cuddled me tightly 

"yes but you're going have to change" Louis said grabbing his keys throwing them in the air and catching them again "this is a little embarrassing" he said pointing to me and then him repeatedly. 

oh god what have i gotten myself into…

i was squashed between Liam and Niall and Zayn sat across from us while Louis Drove and harry sat in the front. Harry told me to sit in the back to socialise with the boys, ugh socialising. 

"so, Kara any special boys in your life?" Zayn said wiggling his eyebrows at me. i smiled and rolled my eyes. 

"if by that you mean boyfriend? then no, not since i was 8" i said waiting for Harry to turn around at me. so i wasn't so surprised when he did. his mouth was wide open.

"you mean you haven't had a boyfriend since Jake Oronzo?" Harry gasped and laughed at the same time. i reddened in both shame and embarrassment. Harry's eyes widened. and he became serious. 

"you never kissed him either, so you've never kissed either!?" Harry said in shock, i watched as all the boys heads whipped in my direction. except for Louis' of course, i could imagine his expresso though. 

"possibly…" i mumbled quietly. 

"but you have fancied a guy? like you aren't like… DO YOU LIKE WOMEN?" Louis blurted out while driving. Harry nudged him slightly. "don't touch the driver! DANGER!" he yelled still keeping his eyes on the road. i laughed and the attention was back to me. 

"so…?" Liam started

the reason why i haven't had a boyfriend is because no one liked me in New York, i had not one friend, that only added me on social networkings to bully me… but if i told you the truth from the start all of this would make so much more sense. 

"no i'm not a lesbian, and yes i do fancy guys, but all the guys in New York aren't well… 'boyfriend' material" i said looking at my hands. 

"so what do you look for in a guy then?" Zayn asked, all the boys looked at him and smirked "JUST CURIOUS… god almighty.." he trailed off 

"you fancy Kara" Louis said looking at Zayn through the rear vision mirror wriggling his eyebrows. 

"god, next time i'll keep my mouth shut" Zayn said crossing his arms and whipping his phone out. the rest of the boys pouted and mimicked what he was doing. 

"i hate you all" Zayn spat under his breath 

"WE'RE HERE!" Louis yelled his voice ringing through my ears. this is going to take  A LOT of getting used too...

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this ones a bit shorter, i haven't had very much time, but i hope you like it! 

bye for now not forever!