The Light in the Dark

Chapter 4

Soon, I saw a path. I walked closer to it, and saw it split into two separate roads. When I looked to my right, I saw my younger self. I saw something in her hand... I saw a blood-stained sword. She was crying... I knew she was holding a lot in, though.

But, why did she have the sword in her hand? She was too young. I knew that. I mean, I was probably too young to have a sword, but... I had something to fight for. But, was there something I was fighting for, when I was younger, but never even knew it? And, if so... Why?

But then, I looked to my left, and I found my brother. He stood there, in a trance. I don't know why. But, all he did was stand there. Then, he looked at me. I saw tragedy in his eyes. Like he had seen it all. But, I know he hasn't. At his age, he didn't know half of it.

But now, what was I supposed to do?

Was I supposed to choose which one I'd rather go with?

And if so, who was I supposed to choose?

I didn't want to suffer like them.

But, was that just being greedy?

To be able to live in peace?

"Help me..." I say, as I was on the verge of tears. I couldn't bear having to choose one or the other. And, why would I just be left alone? I felt abandoned. Like, I was just left here, to decide on my own. I know He told me that I was supposed to choose which choice I felt was correct but… This was too much, for me. Sure, I made other life decisions, but that wasn't the same with this.

This wasn't just a simple choice, on which cereal I should eat. No. This was life or death. Simple as that. I didn't want to die. Not then, and there. So, who should I go with? I stood there, thinking about this. Thinking which would be the better path. 

Did He abandon me? 

Had His love for me, faded?

Why did I feel he had left my side?

I know He can't always help me but... I just felt so lonely, I could die... The feeling of no warmth, to be honest; scared me to death. 

How was I supposed to know which path to take? 

I just... Didn't know anymore...

When I felt I had nothing left; my legs started to move. I started to head towards my brother. I'm not sure why exactly, but I guess I just didn't want to think about my past, anymore. It was a scary place, for me. I had a lot happen to me, and I really didn't want to have to remember those things. 

I walked up to my brother, and said, "Hey... Are you... Okay?" 

"I'm not sure... I just... Don't know anymore..." His voice was dull; his eyes, still dead.

I walked closer, and put my hand on his shoulder. "I'll tell you... You're fine." I tried to make him feel better. I tried to say something to cheer him up. But, it didn't seem to work. 

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure." I gave a grin, and walked forward, and turned around. "Well, what are you waiting for? Let's go."

"Um... Okay..." He walked beside me, and we followed the path onward. 

As we went further, the path just stopped. Then, I saw Him. "I see you've chosen a path. I cannot tell you if you were correct; you must figure that answer for yourself. But, I will help you find that answer." 

 "Why is it you can't tell me? Is it that, I can't be trusted?" I ask. I just had to know. I wanted to know if He had abandoned me. What was it? 

"No. I trust you, with my life. There are some things that I just cannot tell. If you truly wish to know, look in your heart. That is where the answer lies." 

"Um... If I may ask..." My brother says. "Why are we on this journey, exactly?" 

"You both choose to go on this journey. You said you would fight, and answered my call for you." He walked over to Aaron, and put a hand on his shoulder. "But, I answered my call to you, as well." 

I saw the look on Aaron's face, how he was just so happy. But then, I noticed how I was exactly the same. I stood there, just gazing, so in awe, of what He just said. 

"If it weren't for your very existence, I could not feel all of the love, which I do now. There may be times when you feel you don't have love for me, or care for me, but I promise you, I'll always love you. No matter which path you choose to go down." He said, as he looked up. Almost as if He was about to cry.

I guess it makes sense though. I mean, it would be so hard to accept someone doubting you. With how many times I already did that to Him, I'm surprised he still actually talks to me, and answers some of the questions I have for Him. 

I was truly amazed by Him. I know it's hard to accept the fact that someone doesn't always know that you love them. So, for Him to be able to accept my very soul into his life, must take a lot. 

He loves everyone, with open arms, and accepts you, at every step of the way. For being able to just love, is truly amazing...