Diary of a Depressed Girl

February 4th, 2017

I'm sorry, Y.

I didn't want to remind you of last night, I just... I didn't want myself to forget. I didn't want to forget my hate. The hate of adults... the hate of my parents... the hate of my own helplessness.

If I were to forget about that event, I just... It'd be like I've forgiven my helplessness. Like I didn't care about those tears you shed so much last night. Like I didn't hear you at all, those words your dad said... I thought he would have taken your side, but instead he...

Sorry, I'm getting shaken up again. 

You know, you're important to me. You're one of the only people that I'd say I'd love, openly. I could shout it, and not care. That's why, if you were to ask anything of me, I'd try to do it best I can.

I mentioned in my blog, how if I were a god, I would grant you any wish, as much as you want.

I can already see it. You'd ask for lemon meringue pie, every single day, breakfast, lunch, snack, and dinner. Lol, you really love that stuff.

Or maybe... you wouldn't ask for anything at all.

You're the only person, besides our other close and trustworthy cousins, that I reveal my true personality to. At school, everybody thinks I'm happy, the most cheerful and innocent minded girl at school. In reality, I'm really down-in-the-dumps, alone (whether I chose to or not), and... not-so innocent lol.

Ahem, on to another note, I just want you to know how important you are to me... even if you won't see this diary. You don't even know of my second account on wattpad.

I don't like being touched. I don't even like my parents or siblings touch my shoulder, arm, hair *shudders*

But... if I ever openly touch someone, hug someone, heck even talk to someone, they will be important to me.

I said before that I wasn't yandere, but... now re-looking at my thoughts and feelings, I might be more yandere then I thought I was... is that a bad thing? Lol.

Just tell me if anyone makes you cry, get hurt, feel hurt, I'll be there, no sweat.

... or maybe not. I'm still just a young teen after all.

Oh shit... I may be a little too yandere lol.

Well, see you next time, V.

Be happy! Because if your not and someone is preventing it...

They better be ready to face hell.