Overwhelmed (Shannon and cammie)

just to see you smile

"So I am sure you are wondering why i called to the company that no one knows you own." I said sitting in my office chair looking at the boy slouched in the chair, hair a mess wearing the same clothes that he probably wore yesterday which was nothing better than jeans and a shirt old enough to have the hole in it. He looked completely out of place in the large office me being in a pants suit didn't help him at all. 

" people would probably freak their shit if they knew that the person that they gave dirty looks 5 minutes ago was the reason they all have jobs and the person who could easily get them fired they would probably shit their stupid little pantsuits." Kain said 

" okay okay don't know the pantsuit, anyways I need to ask you a huge favor but it would also probably help you in the long run. So i know that your parents kinda went off on you for spending so much money and you are kinda living off of your cut of the company which isn't really enough to live off of and I need this more than you will ever know.

"Shan yes I will come work for you if you need me too." he said " but I refuse to wear a fucking pant suite" 

" well the thing is in need you to run the new york location and I am going to open a Pittsburgh location. listen I have to get back to cam and this is the only way that i will be able to. i have a lunch meeting in 20 minutes to talk abiout getting erin a good paying job so i can leave her and not feel bad about it. stay here think about it and order yourself lunch from where ever you want on me" as i said this i pressed a button and a women came walking through the door "yes Miss Beveridge" " this is mr. lawley i am going to go and get lunch with a client give him whatever he wants order him food from where ever he wants and put it on my card" i started to walk  out when i turned around " thank you kian you have always been there for me and i dont say it enough but i love you"  with that i walked out the door to my lunch meeting 

when i got to my lunch meeting we where talking and catching up like old friends until she asked me a question that i never could have possibly dreamed to ask. 

" So Shan i am sure you want to get erin a job because you truely love her but this is the thing i am stuck on what is love. What really is love. why do we do things for people we would never dream of doing for others. what makes us love someone more than ourselves. shouldnt human nature tell us to care for ourselves over everyone else? But anyways Shan i have to get back but if you really need help finding her a job so you can get out of the relationship i will hire her and i promise not to let her go. 

i was blown away what is love like what truly is love. i couldnt think about anything other than that what is so special about cam why do i love cam so much more than erin why cant i love kian in the way that i love cam why cant i love erin the way that. " thank you so much Jackie you really helped me here." i got up and walked away but i couldnt go back to the office to see kian like i should have or even go to erin to talk to her about the job instead i went to apartment building on 3rd street. I didnt live in this apartment building nor do i know anybody that does however you can get on the roof the place that i wanted to be that.

what is love. there are many types of love. there is the love that makes you want to protect someone or something from everything, you dont want them to get there heart broken. you dont want anything bad to happen to them. then there is the safricifal love you want to give everything to them, you want to give up everything that you have or can possibly get just to make them happy. then their is the friendship sorta love the love that you just want to be there with them always, and you want to be their shoulder to cry on. then there is the mariage kind of love the kind of love where all you want to do is have them by your side for ever and you never want to let them go throught thick and through thin. next there is the type of love in which i have for erin that love where i dont want anything to happen to her and i want her to have a good life but i dont want to be the focal point in it. i want her to love her life and i needed her i needed her to get me through a dark time and that was great but now i need to move on move away from her we are both made for bigger and better things. finally there is the type of love in which i have for cam the type of love that makes me get butterflys the type of love that makes you want to give that person everything that you have and makes you want to use every ounce of effort you possibly have to make that person happy and to make their life everything they want it to be. you want to be with this person every singles minute of every single day, they never get annoying and their comapny never gets old. you never want to say goodbye because it is the hardest thing you could possibly do and saying hello is almost like saying nothing at all. you feel worse when they are down, you get sick to your stomach when they are sick because you want to do is help them but you cant. you will give anything in the whole entire world just to make sure they have everything they need and want. Now it all makes since i have been running around trying to figure it out trying to figure out why cam why do i have to love somebody whole i cant be with and they answer is that love to me there are many types of lover different loves that you have for different people but to me the love that matters the most and the reason we are living. the reason we are living is to find that love to find that love that i have for camden not only have i found my soul mate in turn i have found the true meaning of my existence. i will do whatever i have to and what everr i cant to be with her and fullfill that love for her