Masks And Secrets

Chapter 1: "Internet Friends"

It is 8am already! Wtfudge! Im late! Sir Edmund told us to be there at exactly 7:30am! Shit shit!

I ran from the gate to my new classroom in the 3rd floor using the stairs, Panting..
Ohhh i already want to go home.

I entered the classroom and Im almost surprise, there are only 8 people In the room including myself.

"Hi Cee! Waaaaahhhhh i missed yooooouuu!!" Mj Said while running to my direction.

"Oh hahahaha I didn't miss you, sorry" I replied while Smiling with my true smile not the fake one well i missed her she's a true friend after all

" awww So rude" She said while pouting like a 5 year old kid.

"Kidding Of course I missed you all!" I told her A little louder than i thought.

"Cee! You're so noisy!" Leanne Told me so with her oh so familiar expression, and her unforgettable Eyebrows.

"look who's talking" I said so with my fake smile. I can't help it, pretending to be happy is tiring me, I'm too tired to deal with things that makes me feel more broken than I've ever felt. Its sad, I'm sad.

"well dont you remember me? I'm leanne Duuuhh!"

"whatever" and I sat on the armchair thinking about all the things that happened to myself, how those things changed the way i looked upon life and the world itself.

The day passed by just like a normal day but Its a little noisier than our normal class. Its nothing new, really. We've been Classmates for a year and this is our second year as Cheatmates and Classmates. We are on the highest section, we are a blocked section. Cursed to be with each other until graduation.

I lay in my bed using my non android phone Im excited to talk to them again. Them, yes them, my internet friends. I love anime, it is where impossible things happen, things I wanted to happen to myself, i want to be happy even if its just for a while. So Obviously Im in a facebook group, an Otaku group. I met them there Mae, Chesca, Shin, juvy, Xandra and Two other foreigners from Indonesia and Malaysia Named Siyouh and Jib. I'm only 13 years old but too innocent for the world, There's still so many things that are waiting for me to be discovered, Although I don't know How to. But I discovered them, this thing called internet friends, I really love talking to them with our Group chat.

But the sad part is... I'm a girl in appearance but I'm a boy in my heart and i introduced myself to them as a boy, a 16 years old boy. I don't know why i just wanted to be accepted in this world full of perfectionists and discrimination.

With them I can show the true Me, My true self, the real one. At first i didn't know what's going to happen next but we all made a bond. Shin a Guy who is kinda funny and smart, oh and a Psycho too as he says so. Mae she's one of the energetic in group along with Juvy, they are one of the oldest too. Siyouh is the childish yet funny one while Jib is not really that fluent in english but We can still understand him. Xandra, the yaoi fangirl, what do they call them? Fujoshi? If I'm not mistaken. And lastly, i made a bond with this girl, she's so Cool, Smart, Boyish, and she's just.. Just.. Sooooo unique, that i don't know how to describe her anymore, like I'm out of words.

I don't really know What is love back then, since I grew up bullied and always Being the center of Attraction with their insults. I hate it, really. But I can do nothing since they call themselves my friends back when we were in elementary. I don't cry, i cant cry, i don't want to cry, I'm a strong person but When i know that I did my best but its still wasn't enough i just cant stop my tears from falling. I just wanted to have a simple normal life, Not like this. Even at home.. It's always been like this, They lost their trust in me so I lost my trust to myself, i lost my Confidence and everything I used to think of.

Before, when i was a child, I used to think that life was so easy and simple but Now that I grew up.. I want to turn back time, i miss the old me, The one that i used to be before the world told me who i should be. But its too impossible so i just continued my Ride.

Chesca, She's a friend, a close friend. We talk every night after school from 8 to 3am.

Her chat head appeared on my screen, popping while I'm scrolling on my facebook account, it was a dummy account, i don't show my Face i used anime every time. I don't want them to See my real face, i don't want them to know the truth.

"Yo Bro" she said, A smile appeared on my face, i can feel it. Geez, Why am i like this? Is this really how it feels to be accepted?

I replied, "Yoooo" immediately. What can i say? I really love talking to her.

Then for a few seconds she replied, "What's up? Are you busy? Got any assignments? "

"Nahhhh I'm done with all those shits, how about chu? " I told her so as fast as i can

"Woah, Nice one, lucky bastard. Geez, I've got a lot of things to do for the next two weeks" she said, i can imagine the tone of her voice while telling me this.

"Suuurre, Its just a piece of cake anyway hahahaha XD"

"You're getting cocky -.-" she told me so, I smiled while typing..

"a little bit :3" Seriously, I can imagine her reaction while Reading my reply.

"Are you serious? A little? Dude have you lost your mind? XD" Damn she never failed to amaze me with her words.

So I decided to say.. " No. I'm not serious, and yes, just a little :3"

"Is that a joke? Should I laugh now? XD"
She replied.

And Our conversation Goes on until We fell asleep.

I wish life would be simple and normal for me. I wish i could truly be happy just like this...