My Music Speaks For Me Bio 5

How My Feelings Scare Me

Ugh I hate this feeling of being stressed out and scared. You ever feel like the world is always trying to close up on you? That no matter how many times you try to fix things more shit gets broken and you still can't seem to fix shit?

You feel like your drowning and under water and more shit gets thrown at you? I've been stressing myself out more than usual I feel like every time I take a step forward I get pushed a step back.

All I hear are these voices in my head telling me that I'm going to fail. That everyone in my life will one day walk out of it. I try to drown out the voices but they get louder and louder until it's deafening and that's all you hear?

I've been having dreams about my death a lot lately. Dreams about me ending it all or someone killing me. I think that's a sign that I'm slowly dying instead emotionally that I'm having an emotional overload.

I wish I could have a hand to grab onto and to help pull me out of drowning not really wanting anything from me in return just willing to give me a shoulder to cry on.

I really hope things will get better tomorrow for me that a weight will be lifted off my shoulders *sighs and lays down*