stupid love feeling

Letters III

1/17/2015:
Kisse kya baat karun. Sab apni apni baat Bolte hain. Kya main sab p bojh ho ri hun, kya itni buri hun main, gharwalon ko shaadi shaadi ki lagi hai, Jaise k bhagi ja ri hun ya fir se koi galat kaam karungi,  Arey Mjh pe vishwas karo wo Maine apni marzi se nai kiya, Han meri Galti thi apne saath hone diya uska bahut pachtava hai N zindgi bhar rahega.

N tum, kya bolun Mjhe Bolte ho k status padhun tumhara k " wen I say m ok,  I want someone  to look into ma eyes N say u r not N hug me tight" 

Oh dear wen will u understand this I don't want someone,  I only want u...., also I wanted to b that only one for u, not to b counted into someone.

Bt leave jiska jo naseeb. 

1/18/2015:
Kaisi life ho gae hai
1 din tumpe pyar ata hai, 
2sre din tumhare bagair rehna mushkil
3sre din bahut miss karti hun
4the din tumhara inteZar karti hun
5ve din tumpe bahut gussa ata hai
6the din bahut Rona
N 7tve din tumhe bhulne ki nakamyab koshish.

Aur bus Yahi cycle repeat hota rehta hai.

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M always online,  it's not k m busy in chatting. Nope it's I never want to miss a chance to reply u asap as I got any single msg from u.

1/19/2015:
Feeling like to go in koma,  N wake up after a very long time. :'(

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Mjhe Hasne mein khus Rehne mein kitni taklif hoti, kisi ko kya bataun, kaise ansu chupa ri hun.

Han main ro rahi hun N roungi tumhare liye, isliye nahi ki tum mere saath nahi, isliye k mere pyar mein itni si b taqat ni k tumhe apne se kabi Juda na hone deti, k Mera pyar inna kamzor hai k tum Mjhe inni asani se chod gae......

1/22/2015:
Oh dear thank u aj clear ho gaya, m free now,  tumhe jada farak ni   padta mere saath Rehne na Rehne se, all u want is status,  Baki to fir saath koi b hoi.

Dear Maine tumse ye ni pucha tha k tumhare gharwale kya chahte hain. Maine tumse pucha  tha. Main hi bevakufon ki tarah gharwalon se tumhare liye ladne ko tayaar ho gae thi, N tumhe to apne p hi bharosa ni k tum mere saath age tak rahoge b ya ni.

Kyun Mera hi naseeb itna khota hai.
Do baar, N dono hi baar apni apni tarah se nirasa mili.

Ab pyaar kisi se ni hoga, kisi se b ni.

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Mumma se share karne ka Mann kar ra hai. K dekho na ma wat he is doing with me, wo Mjhe samajh hi ni ra. Kaise samjhaun use,  pls help karo na meri, ap batao na kya karun. Mumma k sirhane baithi b rahi Kafi der unhi ankhein band kar k just assuming.

Hae kitni bebas hun main.

1/23/2015:
Ek baat bilkul saaf ho gae, meri koi ehmiat ni Tumhari life mein. Chalo koi baat ni jo b pal saath bte ache the. Ab chain si sari zindgi j paungi aj baat karke kam se kam ye guilt to gaya k Maine tumhe bolne ka mauka ni dia. Bolne ka mauka b dia N tumhare dil ki baat b Jan li.