verisimilitude (Yuzuru Hanyu X OC)

fumi ichi

"you brought me light."

it all started when i found out about you.

i saw you at the skating rink when you were still so young. at the age of 4 i believe.

you were with your sister, and i was already practicing ice skating by then.

i could never forget the smile you always had on your face as you saw your sister shining on the ice.

that was your family. and then there was mine.

i had been forced to ice skate for most of my life. because my mother had been a legend, i was supposed to continue for her.

unlike the you who always shone when he smiled, i always thought i was useless and couldnt do anything. i didnt even have enough courage to try to skate near your sister, for the fear of you seeing me.

yet, you still saw the most embarrassing moments of my life. like when i was trying to do a toe loop and ended up with my butt on the ice and my mom chided me for being so useless.

you were staring at me with those eyes that pitied me. and yet, i smiled back at you and waved for you to look away. i didnt want to let you see me that way.