Forbidden Love (Norminah/Alren)

chapter 8

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"Normani!" i yelled, as i caught up to her. "we need to talk."

"if it's with Ally, i'm not telling you anything. that's between you two and i'm not getting in the middle of it."

i grabbed her wrist, causing her to look at me with a glare. she was about to enter her house but i wasn't going to leave without an answer.

"i want to know what is wrong so please Normani."

"i can't say it, Lo. i promised her that i wouldn't say anything. you just have to figure it out on your own. you should be able to do that. she's hurting right now and she just keeps hurting herself."

"why is she hurting? who's making her hurt?"

"you are, Lauren. you don't realize how much damage you're doing to her."

"what am i doing to her?"

"she loves you, Lauren. she really does."

"what?" i asked, in disbelief. "no, she can't be. why would she love me?"

"that's something you have to ask but tell me this, what will you say to her?"

"i don't know, i guess i need time to process this."

"don't hurt her because if you do, i'm beating your ass up. no one messes with our little ball of sunshine."

i nodded my head before watching as Normani retreated into her house. i collapsed onto the ground and just stared in front of me. my vision blurred out as i began to think about the signs that Ally had feelings for me.

"Lauren? what are you doing there?" Ally's soft voice called, as i looked up.

"Ally, i'm sorry."

"for what exactly?"

"not realizing how you felt."

"it doesn't matter either way. we can't have a relationship."

"because i'm straight?"

"no, well i mean yes, but that's not the reason. you flaunt your sexuality every chance you get and that just destroys me because i know i will never have a chance with you. if you would just open up your eyes, you can see how much you've hurt me with those words. every time we're close to each other, you do things that only couples do and it gets to me. it's just a reminder that i can't actually have you."

"i'm so-"

"save it for when you actually mean it."

i watched as Ally walked right past me and knocked on Normani's door. i could hear them talk and laugh before the door shut. i decided to get up and call Dinah's number. she's the only one i could talk to right now and i trusted her.

"hello?"

"Dinah, it's me, i was wondering if we could talk."

"sure, meet me at my house. i'm getting some groceries for dinner tonight. you're welcome to stay."

"of course, thanks. i'll be there soon."

"bye Lo."

"bye."

i ended the call and got in my car. i turned the radio up just to turn it back down again. i really didn't want to listen to sad love songs. when i finally arrived at Dinah's house after 20 minutes, i saw her car in the driveway and knocked on her front door. she answered the door with her hair in a messy bun with an apron over her clothes.

"welcome to my abode."

"it's beautiful, but Dinah, would you like some help cooking?"