Lucky Kiss Number 13

Chapter 15

Good.

"A drunk man's words is a sober mans thoughts."

"That's cute Keaton, real cute. If it helps you sleep at night, then sure." I manage I spit out.

"Please Tessa, I really need you right now." His words came out barely as audible.

"Well I don't need you." I fiercely said, holding back all of the pain that I was truly feeling. 

I stormed out of the store, not bothering to buy any of the things I came here for.

I was utterly confused. How did I feel about Keaton? My head hurts, thinking about this. People must have thought I was crazy since I was balling my eyes out inside my car in a middle of a parking lot.

It's got to be the first time that I've cried over a guy. 

It really bothered me when he said, I need you. Bullshit Tessa, he's a big guy, he can perfectly manage on his own. 

Once I got home, my mom had a look of concern on her face when she saw the smeared mascara and eyeliner all over my eyes. She tried to confront me, but I just told her I'll be fine. I'm glad that Drake was still at the gym or he be interrogating me for a whole hour. 

I buried myself in my warm blanket, wiping all of my tears onto the sleeves of my sweater. 

Was Keaton just playing with me? Could there been any possibility that he actually felt something for me? Whatever, it's not like I'm going to marry him or anything.

I decided to skip out on dinner, I lied to mom, telling her that I may have caught the flu. I'm honestly mad at the world right now. 

I may have not expressed it that much, but I'm extremely pissed off at my mom. I just don't want to deal with her. I don't see any point on starting drama when I'm so close to leaving this house. 

How the bloody hell does she think its okay to keep a secret that big away from me? Honestly mom, couldn't you have at least told me about my real dad? She saw me go through depression, she saw the cuts on my arm. She saw what I had to go through every single day. When was she planning to tell me? Like never? 

I'm starting to question whether she's my biological mother or not anymore. I don't even have the energy, nor do I want to use up my effort into showing her that I care. Sometimes I feel that living with her is like living with a roommate. She hardly ever home with her business trips, and when she is home, she's with her stupid boyfriend. I like Gavin and everything, but honestly he could do so much better.

Yes, I stooped that low on my own mother. 

I can't wait to get out of this hell hole. 

-Click-

That had to be the third time in a row that I heard that sound coming from my window. I opened doors to the balcony, to see Keaton sitting on the top branch of the tree in my backyard. 

"Do you know what time it is? It's one in the morning." I replied harshly. 

"Please, please, please don't leave me. I need you, so much Tess. I'm so, so, so, so, so, super duper sorry." He was drunk, this idiot thought it was a good idea to come visit me while drunk.

 Lovely. 

"Go home, your drunk." I blandly said, before kissing my teeth.

"You're the first girl that I've ever loved. You’re the first girl that I've ever cares for. You're the only girl that makes me nervous when I'm with you. You’re the only persons that I have opened up too. All those things I said to you were true. I know what I did was stupid, but please don't ever leave me side. I know you could do so much better than me, but your worth too much for me to lose." 

"I don't care Keaton. This isn't a fairytale is it? Things don't always happen as we want it to. Go home, you’re going to be hung over tomorrow morning and we have school."

"What if I do something stupid? Cause I'm not in the right state of mind" 

"I don't care, do whatever you want Keaton. If you end up in jail, don't call me cause I'm not bailing you out." I looked him dead in the eyes, before making my way back to my room. 

As stupid as it seems, I start crying again. I can't do this anymore. 

I remember my grandma used to tell me this all the time before she died, "There's always a light at the end of the tunnel, the journey is different for everyone else. Don't end the journey before it's begun." She told me those exact words right before she passed away with lung cancer. She'll always have a place inside my heart.

I can make through this, I mentally told myself. I slowly closed my eyes, hoping that my dreams can take away the pain of reality.

"Tessa!" I woke up to Drake nudging my shoulder. I sent him a death glare, before grunting, and tried to go back to sleep. "Tessa, there's someone downstairs for you." 

I release a long groan, and took a quick glance at the clock with my barley opened eyes. 

5:47

My brother is going to get his balls cut off for waking me up at 5:47. Whoever decided to visit me this early in the morning as clearly asking for a death wish.

"Tell them to fuck off and come back at visiting hours." 

Drake awkwardly starched his head before releasing a long sigh. "It's Kaylenne, she downstairs crying Tessa. It's starting to freak me out that she crying like she's freaking Niagara Falls down there." 

Ugh. Fine.

Only cause I consider her as my first real friend that's a girl who also happens to not be related to me. I marched my way downstairs, not caring that I have extremely messy hair, and the possibility that my morning breath could possibly kill someone. 

Oh god, Kaylenne was a hot mess right now. I mean I think she's used up like five of my tissue boxes. My mother was trying to offer her brownies and some beverages, but she was crying so much it was hard to understand what she was saying.

“Hey, tell me what’s wrong.” I hushed into her ear, handing her another tissue. Kaylenne took in deep breaths. “Why didn’t you help him? He needed you,” she managed to say through her cries.

“Huh?” I weakly said, my mind was not even fully on yet. It was hard to comprehend what she was even trying to tell me.

“Keaton really needed you Tessa, the past couple of days been rough for him.”

“Oh. Look Keaton’s a big boy. Whatever issues he has, he can deal with himself. I’m not going to be there just to baby him all the time.” I replied dryly.

As I stood up to go return to my room because I really didn’t want to get back on the whole Keaton subject, Kaylenne grabbed onto my hand, pulling me back.

“He’s been having some personal issues at home Tessa, he really needed someone to talk to.” She pleaded with me.

“Like I said, he’s a big boy. If he has issues he can talk to his friends or his parents.”

“I didn’t think you were such a bitch Tessa. You know, when we came back from our trip, Keaton found out that his mom has breast cancer. That idiot brother of his left her all alone at home, taking off with ten grand not caring that she was sick. He didn’t trust anyone but you. He needed you.” She yelled at me, I could see the anger and frustration in her eyes.

“I-I didn’t know Kaylenne. What do you expect me to say? It’s not my fault, I was mad at him because he placed a bet on me!”

“Keaton tried to call off the stupid bet when he realized that he liked you. He tried called off the bet months ago, but his dick head friends keep telling him that a bet is a bet. Besides it’s not like you’re a virgin, and if you were, do you think he would have actually gone through with it? Guilt has been eating him alive every single time you guys see each other!” This was no longer a casual conversation, this was a full on screaming match.

“So you knew about the bet to?” I questioned. To think I actually thought that we were good friends. I knew it, things were too good to be true.

“What did you want me to say? Hey Keaton became friends with you because of a bet, but he really likes you so don’t worry? You obviously wouldn’t have given him a chance, or me once you found out we were cousins. God, you know what? Coming here was stupid since you obviously don’t care. I bet you won’t even care when I tell you that Keaton’s in the hospital now because he got into an accident for drunk driving.”

I stood there in shock. My mother and brother had the same reaction on their faces too. I knew he was drunk and I let him drive home. “Oh.” I finally managed to choked out in disbelief.

Note: Hey my lovely readers! I'm sorry that I didn't upload this on Christmas. I had essay writers block, and decided it was no use and if I wasn't going to type anything, so I decided to finish this chapter for you all. 

As for Noah. Yea, I know. He was suppose to be the 'other guy', but I just couldn't. Noah was suppose to be this totally chunk of hunkness. But then I remembered about this Noah guy that I know in real life, who has long shaggy hair and is a total creep. I mean if you've ever met a teenage pedophile man who has an obsession with toe nail clippings, that would be what real life Noah. Now every single time I right about Lucky Kiss Number 13's Noah, I see his image and its just ehhhh cause he wouldn't be much competition to Keaton so yea...lol XD So he's not really the competition guy.

If you've read this far, your fantastically awesome. I'm still on a hunt for a professional looking cover, and I don't know if I want to keep the theme of football because its kind of hard to find good quality pics with football stuff. But I've narrow it down to a couple that I like, but its not football related though. Tell me which pics you like, and want to become the next cover, or should I just keep my old cover? Nothing's official yet. Tell me if you like 1, 2, 3, 4, or none.