Left (Season 3): Despair.

Pangapat.

Pangapat.

Nang magising ako ngayong araw automatic na napangiti ako.

Bakit hindi? Sa wakas nagising ako ng walang agam-agam at magaan ang loob.

Dahil kasama ko na ang mga kaibigan ko at mahal ko.

Sa nakalipas na mga araw halos kagigising ko pa lang pero pakiramdam ko pagod na pagod na ako. Wala akong gana at hindi ako makangiti. Dahil nga wala sila. Pero ngayon feeling ko kaya kong tumagal ng ilang araw ng walang tulog dahil sa sobrang saya ko.

Who wouldn't right?

Umupo ako mula sa pagkakahiga at tiningnan si Blake na tulog pa. I can't believe that he's already here with me, katabi ko sa kama.

Hindi ko napigilan at nayakap ko sya ng mahigpit kahit tulog pa sya. I'm just too happy.

Mayamaya naramdaman kong gumalaw ito.

"Lou?" He asked using his sleepy voice. "Lagi ka na lang maaga magising."

Natawa ako ng maalala ang nangyari kaninang madaling araw. Nagising din sya dahil sa pagyakap ko.

"I'm sorry if I always woke you up. I just really still can't believe it. You're already here with me." I said poking his arms, his cheek and his hand. Parang sinisigurado kung sa pagsundot ko ba sa kanya maglalaho siya at isa lang itong panaginip. Pero hindi siya naglaho. This is really real.

Napangiti naman ito at hinila ako pahiga sa ibabaw ng dibdib niya.

"You wanna have some proof that I am already here with you?" He asked. His smile widening more.

"How?"

"This." Then his lips crash into me.

Napapikit ako ng maramdaman ang paggalaw ng labi niya.

Making me feel that he's really here.

His lips move in a not so hurry way. It feels like he's savoring every touch of his lips to mine. Parang sinisiguro rin na totoong kasama niya ako.

He stops kissing me then switch our position. He was now the one on top of me and I was the one underneath him.

His lips descends on me again. Kasabay ng kamay nitong unti-unti humahaplos sa kamay ko pataas sa braso at balikat.

When his kiss went down on my neck nalipat din ang isang kamay nito sa laylayan ng suot kong damit. Slowly his hand go inside. Touching my stomach smoothly. And i swear kinilabutan ako. I feel like he's trying to feel our baby.

Kasabay ng pagkagat niya sa leeg ko ay ang pagsakop ng isang kamay niya sa dibdib ko. And when did he remove my brassiere? We're skin to skin now.

I can't help but bit my lip to control the moan that wants to get out from my mouth. I don't want them to hear us. They're just next room. Actually sila Kat at Logan. Kasama kasi namin sila sa iisang bahay while yung iba sa kabilang bahay natulog. Meron din sa sala sila Rona at Jeremy. Nagsiksikan na kasi kami dahil sira ang ibang bahay.

"Ohh," I silently moaned. Nawawala ang mga iniisip sa pagpisil nito sa aking dibdib.

And I think that moaned made him change the way he kiss me. Its like that moaned made the beast in him goes out.

Kung kanina sobrang bagal ngayon siniil niya na ako ng halik. Malalalim na halik na sinuklian ko rin.

His kisses are strong and deep and as if it was not enough. Its like his searching something. Looking for more.

His deep kisses went from my lips, down to my neck he even bit my shoulder hard when his lips went there.

I got crazy when he caressed my breast. I feel like I'm having trouble breathing. My heart is pounding faster and hard. My breath was fucking quick I think I'm chasing them so I can still breathe.