You are the person whom I liked the most.
You became my inspiration in life.
You are the reason behind my every smile.
The feeling I get when you gazed at me.
Butterflies on my stomach.
Heatbeats getting faster every second.
Face heating up and cheeks turning red.
Palms getting sweaty.
Whenever you smiled at me.
The reason why I daydream a lot.
Dreaming that you also feel the same.
Imagining myself as someone as your friend to close friend to bestfriend to lover and lastly as your wife.
Getting too far of my imagination that will put a big smile in my face.
Everyday is a new beginning.
A new day to start with you.
To start, by simply throwing glances at you.
I stuttered when you started talking to me.
It's all fine. Me, secretly loving you and you, without knowing it.
Every girl connected to you, makes me feel envious of them.
Because they can get the attention that I would never have.
When you're with a girl, it makes may heart aches.
Jealousy strikes me again. Harder each time.
Seeing you from afar with that girl, laughing and those sweet looks you're giving her.
I think the both of you makes a great couple.
But of course, I'm only faking it.
In front of everybody, I act fine.
Like teasing the both of you to each other
"You both look good together."
"Wow, you're sweet."
"Ayieh. I'm so happy for the both of you."
But deep inside...
Heaven knows how much I wanted to scream and cry.
It feels like hell to me.
Why did I let this go this far?
I guess it's not crush anymore. It's more than that.
Love.
Tears forming in my eyes, and in a glimpse. I'm already crying.
I know that others may think that I'm over reacting.
But it hurts so much that I can't bear it anymore.
I guess the one person who puts a smile on your face is the same person who put tears in your eyes.
The one that can make my day is the same person who can ruin it.
The one that can put sun and rainbow is the same person who gives you storm full of lightning and thunder.
"I think I'm silently loving someone, without him knowing about it."
I'd rather loved him from a distance than ruined the friendship that we have.
I'm contented with what I have now.
I know it hurts, but I'm still glad to experience love.
It's ironic...
When you love someone, they don't feel the same way. And when someone loves you, you can't even love them back.
First, love can make you happy and inspired.
And then, make you cry and gloomy.
But if it's not happy, it's not yet the end.
You can't just ask for love that doesn't hurt.
Because true love hurts.
You just gotta find someone who is worth the pain.
Love doesn't hurt.
Rejection, pain, heart aches, disappointments hurts.
