The Dance

Chapter 12

Devin's pov

"Dean" I whisper

"Who the hell is Dean" Ali says

"My brother" Xavier says and Ali turns to look at him

"Your brother" she asks him

"Yeah"

Then she turns to me the look in her face as she was screaming and crying literally killed me inside well whatever was left of me that is.

"You were in love with Xavier's brother"

"Yes" I say looking at xavier "No one knew we kept it a secret both of us afraid of what our parents would say i more than him but he was still scared."

"I killed him" I say "I know I did if I hadnt have driven or got drunk at all he would still be alive your child and boy-"

"Don't you dare speak of them" she says so slow and threating that I hold my hands up man was she scary.

"If I had suggested taking a cab then Dean and Cole would still be alive everyone would still be alive. Do you know how much guilt I feel I wish I could go and turn myself in."

"You should!" She says

"YOU DONT UNDERSTAND I CANT!!"

"WHY?"

"MY DAD WONT LET ME!"

"THINK ABOUT DEAN THINK ABOUT COLE AND MY FIENCE AND MY CHILD THINK ABOUT THEM WHERE IS THE JUSTIC FOR THEM? HUH?"

"YOU DONT THINK I DONT KNOW THAT? THAT I DONT THINK ABOUT THE LIVES I HAD RUIN? DO YOU? I THINK ABOUT IT ALL THE TIME THE WHAT IFS AND I HAVE TO DRINK A WHOLE BOTTLE OF WHISKEY TO DROWN OUT THE DEMONS"

"I know how it is"

"How?"

"I lost people on that day too" she says sitting on the floor beside me where I has plopped down on the floor. "I'm still fucking pissed at you and I don't know I can honestly forgive you but I do know what you through I think all of us do" she says looking at Xavier as he grabs two bottles of alcohol hands one to me and Ali and Xavier share he takes a swig first then hands it to Ali and I take a swig of mine.

"Devin?"we all look up and it is Penelope at the door we all groan.

"What" I snap at her

"Is it true?"

I looks at Ali and the back at her

"Yes"

"I've been sleeping with a gay person this whole time"

"Actually a bi person but yes"

She walks further in slaps me in my battered and bruised face then plops down beside me and takes my bottle taking a swig and that how we spent the next 5 hours going through my medicine cabinent aka the alcohol cabinent. Ali and Xavier left around 5:30 after sobering up

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Ali's Pov

"Are we going to go back and dance or to your place?" Xavier asks

"My place don't know if i could dance after that"

"Yeah me too, who knew my brother and his best friend were together."

"His?"

"Yeah me and Devin didn't become friends until after the accident."

"Wait Devins older than you"

"Yeah same age my brother would be"

"And that is

"22"