A Mistress Cry [SPG]

Chapter 8

How long can I endure the pain? How long can I stand that he's the pain I'm willing to take? How long could I justify that he loves me no matter what? How long could I entrust my happiness on him while he's the reason of my pain? How long could I love him selflessly? How long?

Sumusuko na ba ako? Hindi. Hindi ko sya kahit kelan susukuan. I may got tired at some point but never will give up on him. Kasi tao lang ako marunong mapagod pero matindi magmahal. It's like he owns me. Every part of me live for him.

Ilang araw pa ang lumipas ngunit hindi pa sya nagpaparamdam sa akin. Naghihintay na naman ako. Gusto ko ng sumuko pero hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko. Sya kasi ang buhay ko. 2nd anniversary na naming bukas pero wala pa rin sya. Gusto ko na syang sukuan. Maybe it's time?

I celebrated our supposed to be second anniversary sa apartment ko. I want to get drunk! I drink myself to forget. I drink myself to feel numb. I drink myself to unloved. At ng hindi ko na kaya ang kalasingan I fell asleep pained.

Nagising ako kinabukasan na masakit ang ulo. Masakit ang puso at may luha sa mata. Hindi talaga kaya ang overnight na pagmumove on. Haha who am I kidding? Hindi ko kayang mag move on.

I just stay still on my bed when the door suddenly open and emerge the one who cause me pain, looking so handsome. Nagulat pa ko. Lumapit sya sa akin and wipe my tears. Iniiyakan ko nga pala sya. Kasalukuyan nga pala akong nag eemote.

"B-babe are you okay?" he said lovingly while wiping all my tears na hindi na natatapos. Hindi ako makasagot. Parang lahat ng tampo ko sa aknya ay nawala bigla lahat nawala. His presence could only make me forget all the pain that his giving. Yung malaman kong andito sya sa akin. Andito sya ulit sa akin at hindi nya ako iiwan. I hug him tight. Mas lalong lumakas ang iyak ko. He's here. I thought iiwanan nya na ako.

"B-bakit n-gayon k-ka l-lang n-nagpakita? Ang t-tagal k-kong n-naghintay sa-sayo. A-akala ko hi-hindi ka na ba-babalik." humihikbi kong sabi.

"I'm sorry babe. Look at me," itinaas nya ang baba ko at tiningnan ang mata ko. "Tinapos ko lang ang lahat ng trabaho ko. I want this day to be special for the both of us. Happy anniversary babe." He kissed me. Yung nakakatunaw na halik. Just like that wala na. Wala na lahat ng sakit.

He made love to me like I'm the only woman in his life. Like I'm the most beautiful for him. Like he loves me dearly. Every thrust, every moan I feel the love.

We ate the breakfast that he prepared after an intense sex. I'm glowing I know. This is a special day for us. We decided to take a leave from everything. We need a vacation.

After an 8 hour drive nakarating din kami. The place is beautiful. The beach is fantastic. The feeling is perfect. Nagcheck in kami sa hotel at nagpahinga. Afer an hour or two we decided na libutin ang buong lugar. Maganda nakakarelax. We buy souvenirs sa first day pa lang namin because this is just a two-day trip. Baka hindi na ulit kami makalabas ng room. If you know what I mean. Haha.

We ate dinner sa kilalang restaurant sa lugar. I miss talking to him. Lahat ng pedeng pag usapan ay pinag usapan namin. Work. Politics. Even sa showbiz may alam sya. This is one of his sides that I love.

After dinner we just make a stroll. Napakapeaceful ng lugar. Konti lang ang mga taong naglalakad dahil gabi na. Walang traffic. Walang pollution. Nang may nakita akong street vendor ay natakam ako sa mga street foods. I suddenly crave for fishball. Pinagtatawanan nya lang ako habang bumibili kami. Hindi pa daw ako nabusog e ang dami ko ng kinain kanina. I just ignore him basta gusto ko.

"Ano ba buy your own!" sabay hampas sa kamay nya. Akma kasi syang kukuha e ayoko magbigay. Loloko lokohin pa nya ako na di pa raw ako busog e parang sya rin naman. Nakatambay kami ngayon sa isang park in the middle of the night. Konti lang naman ang tao e.

"Babe andamot mo," he said ng nakangiti. Feel ko magdamot ngayon e. Kain lang ako ng kain at hindi pa rin sya binibigyan. He's just looking at me smiling. Naconcious tuloy ako.

"Babe ano ba wag mo nga akong tingnan," naiilang kong sabi.

"Why? I love looking at you." Kinilig naman ako. Sweet gestures, sweet talks make me swoon all over to him. Hindi ko namalayan na he's kissing me nap ala. Sa public! For the first time he kissed me in a public place. Not that I like it pero kasi I feel proud na hindi sya nahihiyang ipakita how much he adores me. I kissed him back and when it gets hot we decided to go back to our hotel. And release all the emotions and hotness we have for each other.

I woke up feeling sore all over my body. He's insatiable nga dib a. Hindi nya ko tinigilan hanggat kaya nya pa. Sino ba naman ako para tumanggi di ba. Gusto ko rin naman. Ngayon na alng ulit nya ko niyakap habang natutulog kasi lagi naman syang umuuwi sa kanila. I just looked at him. He's perfect. Ganon naman e he's perfect kapag inlove ka. He's more than you could ask for. Ayaw ko pa sanang bumangon but I want to take a dip. Pauwi na kasi kami before lunch. Sayang naman kung hindi ako makakaligo sa dagat. I just wore a stringed bikini. Pinatungan ko lang ito ng summer dress. Naexcite naman ako pagkakita ko sa dagat. Ang peaceful. Konti pa lang ang tao kasi maaga pa masyado. Hinubad ko na ang summer dress ko at lumusong na sa dagat. Para akong bata na enjoy na enjoy. Nakakacalm talaga ang dagat.

Nagulat na lang ako ng may humawak sa bewang ko. Pag tingin ko sa likod ay si Leo pala.

"Morning babe," then he lowered his head to kiss me. Ang gandang umaga nito sana hindi na matapos. We just kiss as if no one's looking. We don't care about the people around us. And before everything get heated up lumayo ako sa kanya and enjoy the view of him. Ang sexy nya talaga. Broad shoulders. Defined muscles. Who wouldn't fall in love with this man?

"Mornig babe," bati ko rin sa kanya. At sinabuyan sya ng tubig sa mukha. Nagulat sya pero agad agad gumanti. Hinabol nya ako and when he caught me he tickled me. Nauubusan na ako ng hininga kakatawa. I feell all the happiness. Nang mapagod ay nag aya na syang umahon at magbihis. We ate late breakfast bago kami umuwi.

Our morning was full of laughter and happiness. And that's how we end our vacation. We went home feeling all wonderful. I thought it'll lasts pero sabi nga nothing lasts forever.