Doll - Winter Soldier Fanfic

Eighteen

You looked up at him with a fake angry look.

He looked down still laughing.

"What? Are you going to push me in now? I'd like to see you try." He taunted.

You stood behind him and pushed with all your might but he didn't even budge.

You pushed as hard as you could but he stood firm and laughed.

Eventually you gave up and folded your arms.

He swiftly picked you up again and tossed you back into the water.

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"I think I've got to go soon." Bucky announced as you swam around.

You pouted.

Bucky helped you out of the water and handed you your towel.

You dried off as much as possible and wrapped the towel around your waist.

Once back in the room you both took turns washing up and changing clothes.

Bucky was waiting for Steve to call.

He was sitting on the bed facing you.

You reached out for his hand.

"May I?" You asked. He nodded and you took his hand.

It was cold and hard.

"How did you lose it?"

"I was told I fell out of a train. Said I should be lucky it's all I lost." He answers.

"You don't remember it?"

He shook his head.

"Would you like to? That's something we can work on."

He shook his head again.

You fiddled with his metal hand.

"Why not?" You asked looking down and the unusual metal.

"I feel like if I start to remember certain things I'll remember all the bad things I've done. My nightmares are bad enough I don't need them to be detailed."

"Nightmares? You never told me about any nightmares Buck."

He shrugged.
"I'm a soldier. I'm supposed to be strong, brave, resilient. I'm a big strong man, I shouldn't have nightmares."

"That's not true. Lots of people have nightmares. It doesn't make you any less of a man. You're still the roughest toughest guy I know."

He laughed. "Good to know."

"What are the nightmares about?"

"Usually the things I've done. Those seem to be the only things I can't forget." He sighed. "Lately. The nightmares have been about hurting you."

"Hurting me?" You stiffened a little.

"Everything Hydra put in me is still there. What if I'm triggered? Or I just get mad? I don't know what will happen. I could hurt you."

You shook your head,"You won't hurt me."

"You don't know that." He argued.

"Neither do you."

He sighed,"If I somehow get mad or triggered promise you'll get away from me."

You shook your head,"I can help. I won't leave you."

"Penelope I wasn't asking."

"James I won't leave you. Ever. You're stuck with me."

"Penelope please. Just leave until I'm myself again then you can help."

"No." You firmly said.

"I'm serious."

"So am I."

He sighed. "I don't want to argue with you. But I won't be able to live with myself I ever hurt you."

"You won't."

He took your hand and kissed it. "You're so goddamn stubborn."

You smiled and shrugged,"So are you. Are you scared? That Damien could hurt you?"

"No. My anger is fueled. I'd like to see him try."

"Why is your anger fueled? What did he do to you?"

His brows furrowed,"He hurt you. In more ways than one."

"Oh."

"You don't know what you mean to me Penny."

"So tell me."

"I'd rather show you." He paused, " May I?"

You nodded silently.

He tucked a strand of hair behind your ear.

You looked at him wide eyed.

His hand ran over your flushed cheeks.

He cupped your cheek and ran his thumb over your full slightly parted lips.

He stared at your lips for a while before looking into your eyes.

He slowly leaned in, almost torturously.

He lightly almost undetectably kissed the corner of your lips.

He pulled away slightly before moving in again.

This time he placed his soft lips on yours.

Double update cause you guys are the best and also cause I didn't have wifi until now. Hope you like ❤️