Playing on broken strings.

chapter 18

“NO MATTER HOW MANY MISTAKES I MAKE IM ALWAYS HERE REMEMBER THAT”

Just keep walking I said to myself.

“NEVER FORGET PIPPA IM HERE”

For a moment I stopped and thought. But I had to carry on walking I cant back down not now.

“NEVER FORGET ABOUT ME PLEASE”

“I wont” I whisper to myself.

And with that I hear Christian come out of the club and start talking to Justin.

“Woah, Woah Justin man whats up calm down” I hear Christian say.

“NO, I messed it up Christians…..shes gone…..its all my fault…..i lost her” I hear him say before he breaks down yet again and burys his face in his hands.

I begin to run knowing I cant look back, I keep running and running until I finally come to an area which seems midly familiar I know my way home from here.

What have I just done.

I feel so bad words cannot explain.

But it was for the best right?

I know hes better off without me.

And maybe im better off without him?

Urgh who am I kidding.

He was drunk.

He said he didn’t know what he was doing why did I have to overreact.

But its done now I cant take it back.

Theres no longer a Justin and I.

But I will never ever ever forget him.

Walking up to my front door I put the key in and opening it only to have balloons fall on me and when the balloons had finally stopped falling there hung across the wall was a huge banner which said ‘HAPPY 17Th BIRTHDAY PIPPA’ then there the picture Justin took of him and me on the first day we met outside on the porch.

I just slammed the door and fell to my knees crying.

He had decorated the entire house and put post it notes everywhere with cute messages on like..

‘How you doing birthday girl Justin xo’

Or

‘I think its my babys birthday ;) Justin xo’

And then I see one which makes me feel even worse..

‘Have you found your present yet babygirl Justin xo’

What did he mean?

I decide to forget about it and just go to bed I feel so bad and theres nothing I can do about it now.

Walking up the stairs I look at all the banners and pictures Justin had stuck everywhere.

When I finally get into my room I walk into the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror.

My makeup is all over my face my hair is everywhere and my heart is broken great.

I take off all the makeup and change into some sweatpants and a baggy tee shirt.

When I finally go to get into bed I look and find a small box with a letter next to it the letter reads

‘Open me ;)xx’

It was in Justins handwriting…

I finally pluck up the courage to open the letter as I unfold the paper and read the contents..

Dear Pippa,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I don’t really see the point in writing this as I figure ill be with you when you see the present but if for any case im not I wrote this Just in case. You know how organised I like to be;)

So Pippa where oh where do I start?

When I met you I was lost and something drew me to that little music shop and now I know what it was. It was you.

Let me just tell you walking into that little music shop was the best decision of my life because if I didn’t have you I don’t know what I’d do.

I just want you to know how much I love you and always will and I hope that this present will show that and I promise you I will keep the promise that this present is trying to show.(trust me it will all make sense when you open it lol)

Anyways just open the god damn gift ;)

You complete me Pippa

All my love,

Justin xoxox

For the millionth time tonight im crying again.

Justin must have left this here all ready for when I came home.

I pick up the small box and open in.

My jaw falls open as I see whats inside.

A simple gold banded ring.

A take it out of the box and notice some writing on the insides of the ring it reads.

‘from your permanent bodyguard x’

I feel my throat tightening as I slip the ring onto my finger.

In the box I see there is another small note. It read.

See it makes sense now doesn’t it, whenever your wearing this im there and protecting you and when you need me im always right there no matter what we go threw im always there right on your hand.I I will always love you Philippa Jane.

Everything he was saying back at the club makes so much more sense now.

He actually meant it everything he said.

Even though we may not still be together anymore I am still going to wear this.

Having it on my finger it makes me feel protected.

I slowly slide myself into bed and curl up into a ball switching the light out

I eventually drift off into a unsettled slip with one thought sticking in my head like glue.

Is this really the end of me and Justin?

AUTHORS NOTE!

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