Damaged

1

"Suck that dick boy!" he yelled as he forced my head up and down. "Mom help me!" I yelled as I tried to fight back before he punched me in the head. "No this is what you deserve you sorry ass excuse for a son" she said venomously. "Man he wack as fuck!" he said pushing me off of him and punching me in my stomach. He continued for what felt like years until he finally stopped. My so called mother did nothing but laugh at me the whole time he was letting his anger out on me.  He finally stopped when he felt his breathing hitch. I laid there lifelessly asking God why didn't he just let him finish the job. My parents weren't always like this but it's like one day they just snapped.

  I was never successful in the relationship department either because they (my parents) always beat me until I was barely recognizable. No guy rarely even wanted to come near me because of that. I really don't know what I did to deserve such punishment but it looks like these are the cards I've been dealt. I guess I'll continue to receive these beatings until they finally finish the job. My innocence was stolen from me the day I turned 16. I'll never be able to get that back. Who's gonna love me? I'm damaged beyond repair! "Clean yourself up and get ready for school bitch." my mom said kicking me and walking out of the room. "If you don't move faster, imma beat your ass again. You got until the count of 10 to get up." my dad said as he begin to count.

  I somehow manage to muster up enough strength before he got to 2. You could hear some of my bones cracking due to the impact that they received. I walked upstairs to my room to get my towel, rag and a fresh pair of clothes, since the ones I had on were ripped and torn for the previous events. I grabbed my things and walked into the bathroom. I stepped into the mirror and just stared at myself. "You look like hell. Damn." I said as I turned on the shower. I hurried and took a shower before one of them came upstairs and finish what they started. I turned the water off, dried myself off and then proceeded to brush my teeth. I'm sorry, I didn't introduce myself. My name is Alexander Johnson and welcome to my personal hell I call life.

  I have an older brother, 23, whose name is Jordan. Sadly though, he moved away when he was 18 and he haven't been in contact with us ever since. I miss him so much. Me and him were very close and he always protected me from anyone that tried to harm me. Not that I can't hold my own or anything, he just preferred to handle it. As for me, I'm 17 and my birthday is tomorrow, October, 16th. I'm sorry but I'm going to have to cut this short as I'm already late for school. I quickly ran into my room to finish getting dressed. If your wondering if I felt any pain while doing that, the answer would be fuck yea. There's no time to dwell on that though as I have to prepare myself the 45 minute walk to school. Do you really think I was getting a ride, let alone carfare to get to school? You're sadly mistaken. 

   I reached under my pillow and grabbed the phone that Sage and Aurora brought for me. I always keep it hidden just in case my parents ever try to bust in my room. It was a nice Galaxy S6 Edge plus, not the latest or greatest model but still a decent phone nonetheless. With all that situated, I grabbed my book bag and ran down the steps. As I was alking to the door, my mom decided to trip me. "Clumsy ass" she laughed as she walked away. "Make sure your ass is home at 8. No later or that's your ass." my dad said. "But I have to work tonight." I said. "I don't give a fuck what you have to do. You heard what I said." he shot back. After he said that, I just nodded and made my way out of the door. I work at this nice bakery that Sage helped me get into since she also works there. I had secretly opened up a bank account and had Aurora and Sage keep the card so that my parents would never find it and spend the money.

  So far, I only have about $250 in my account seeing as though I always have to buy some medical supplies for these injuries I receive. Five minutes into my trek to school, I was already tired. Mostly from the pain and then the lack of food. Thank God that the weather didn't say any rain today because that's when my parents would decide to be extra petty. The last time it rained, they literally drove in a puddle and drenched me. I went to school smelling like a wet, funky ass dog. Everything from my shirt to my socks were wet. They just laughed and drove through the puddle again, laughing at me. I was snapped out of my thoughts when Sage texted me. 

Sage: "Wya?"

Me: "I'm on 34 and Malcolm."   

Sage: "Stay there. I'm on my way to get you."

Me: "Ok."

  It was almost always like this. Her or Aurora would come and pick me up and take me to school. They did question why I was walking instead of being on the bus, but I would always lie and tell them things like I left my car fare in the house or I overslept and wanted the exercise. I always felt guilty and I knew that they knew I was lying but they never pressed the issue and I never spoke more into. I don't want any hurt to come to them because of me. While I wait for Sage to come, let me give you some background info on the three of us. Me, Sage, and Aurora all grew up together. We met in Jordan Elementary School and been cool ever since. They were the first people I came out to and loved me the same as they always have. I still remember Aurora's words when I told her. "That's it? That's the big secret? Nigga I would still love you the same if you said you're Chinese and Blue. None of that matters to me!" she said.

  I smiled at the thought. I love those girls so much man. I later told my parents and they were cool with it as well. Where did this sudden attitude change come from then? Your guess is as good as mine. I was snapped out of my day dream when Sage honked the horn. "Get in baby boy she said smiling." her smile soon disappeared when she saw my face. "'Xander, I told you about walking through alleyways late at night! You never know what type of people are out there." she yelled sounding like a concerned. "I'm sorry." was all I could say. She took a deep breath and then proceeded to drive. "How was your weekend?" she asked making small talk. Oh great, sucked my dad's dick and played with my mother's tits. You know the usual. "It was fine. Worked all weekend so I'm kinda tired." I lied.

  She knew it but continued. "I was working too. I wish they would move our shifts closer together so I can see you but no biggie as I see you in school everyday. By the way, do you work today?" she asked as I nodded my head. "Cool so do I. Look at God. I'll drive us there." she said. Five minutes later, we were pulling into the schools parking lot. I decided to pop two ibuprofen's to help ease my pain and soon to be headache. As soon as we walked in, Aurora ran to us. "My babies are here!" she said hugging both of us, making my pain even worse. "You're killing me girl. Release." I said as we all laughed. Just after we walked in, David and his best friend Dominic walked in. "Move bitch." Dominic said as he bumped into me. "Allat shit was unnecessary!" Aurora said slapping him upside the head. 

  "Did this bitch just slap me?" Dominic said turning around. "I sure did. Fuck you mean?" Aurora shot back. "Well since I don't hit girls, imma just beat your friends ass to give you a reminder." he said walking towards me. Great just what I need, more bruises. I dropped my book bag and tried my best to square up but it was hard. He swung but I managed to dodge right before he connected. Too bad my body decided to cramp up, making me an easy target. "Alex!" I heard them say as it was too late. I started to feel punches and kicks all over my body. "Stop it! He's gonna kill him!" Sage said trying to come to my rescue. "That's enough!" David said tossing Dominic into the lockers. Coughing up blood, I tried to stand but that's when everything went black.

  First chapter down!

I'm not holding anything back on this one.

Thoughts so far?

Sage?

Dominic?

David?

Aurora

Alex's parent's?

Alex?

I'm just getting started here. Hang on!