Supposed to be a 'Nerd' !

Josh

The truth is I've liked her since we were 13 but I got jealous, that's why I started doing it but it's just gotten worse and worse since then and now look where we are.

It started with only a slap but then other people got involved and I made something up so the guys would all join in, Josh knew I was lying and still does but never says anything.

I throw myself on my bed since I have no editing to do and just lay their thinking, I honestly don't know what to do? I know I hurt her a lot both physically and mentally and that she hates me but I don't like doing it, I never have.

The only reason I even did it was because she led me on when she first started; she was so nice and sweet and we where only a few weeks into year 8 but then when I saw her the next day she was with some older boy and was all over him...........

FLASHBACK

Me and Josh have just walked through the gates at school with our oversized blazers and ties that go past our stomach on when I see this beautiful girls walking towards the main office, that must be the girl I'm supposed to help around. I say bye to Josh and walk into the office to see her with her back to me talking to the receptionist at the desk, the quite nice old lady points at me making the girl turn around. I can literally feel my heart speed up at the sight of her, sure her blazer was too big just like mine and her shoes had seen better days but I wasn't looking at her clothes I was just looking at her.

She stood their with her dark blonde hair up in a tight ponytail, she had dark blueish green eyes which I've never really seen before and just took my breath away. She looked down at the floor whilst wiping her hands on her thighs slightly, she seems a bit nervous which is understandable since its her first day so I made the first move.

"Hey...." Is all I can come up with seriously? 'Hey'? That's the best I've got, I can feel myself blushing and the thought of her seeing me blush only makes it worse.

"Uh hi I'm Maddison" she says in a shy voice, I step closer to her and take the schedule out of her hands gently because honesty I thought she would of snatched it back.

"I'm Simon, oh look we have quite a few lessons together. Do you want me to show you to your first one?" I ask as we slowly walk out of the office, I hand her her schedule back and we continue to walk and she nods in response to my question.

"So where have you come from?" I ask simply as we make our way into the DT block which we both have first but she has a different teacher to me, she looks a bit flustered with my question and it takes a while for her to answer.

"Oh nowhere I just moved schools really." She says and it sounds like she had a bit of an accent but I can't figure out what?

"So where you like homeschooled or something then?" I ask as we come to a stop at her room, she takes a second to think again before answering.

"Um yeah my mum taught me but then she got a proper job so I have to go to an actual school." She says as the bell goes off, she looks really nervous to go in so I hug her out of instinct but I'm not sure what instinct that is yet?

"You'll be fine, look if it makes you feel any better you can hang about with me at break yeah? I'll meet you outside your class?" I ask as I let go and see some guys looking at her, that made me kind of angry but I brush it off and look back at her. She simply nods before walking into her classroom with a wave, I walk over to mine and just sit their for the whole lesson thinking about her!