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pensive year 1

Harry looked at the dead bodies on the ground, people screamed at him, telling him to get to voldumort, its his fault their love ones are dead, blood, people falling dead on the floor, blood everywhere , screams, crys, green lights flash.

Harry awoke, breathing heavily, his eyes darting around, another nightmare , he thought to himself. Looking around, he saw Ron, ginny and hermionie looking at him.
"You okay mate?" asked ron
"Yeah. Just a nightmare"
"We had them to" hermionie said, motioning to Ron, Ginny and herself.
"We'll probably get them a lot now" sighed harry.
"Lets try and go back to sleep. " urged hermionie.

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No one but lilly, James and Sirius slept well. Tonks and remus kept relieving the moments each other died in their sleep. The trio and Ginny all came downstairs with bags under their eyes with hollow expressions in their eyes.
"You all alright?" Asked James
"You look tired, to be honest you always look tired! When was the last time you slept properly? Without a potion?" Sirius asked
"Rough night, probably about the beggining of fourth year" harry replied as remus nodded understandingly, but sadly with a horrified expression, the beggining of fourth year was a long time ago. 
"Had those a lot in azkaban, third year, long time ago, you really should" mused Sirius but was interrupted by james
"AZKABAN!!" roared James.
"Ah" said Sirius
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN AZKABAN"
"James calm down, let a man speak" scolded lilly
"DONT TELL ME TO CALM DOWN I WILL NOT CALM DOWN HOW DARE THET PUT YOU IN AZKABAN! WHY?!?!"
"Stupify" muttured lilly as James fell back onto the bed. "Piece and quiet" sighed lilly. "Now Sirius, what were you saying?"
"I went after pettigrew, he betrayed you by the way, and when i found him he shouted how i betrayed you, he cut of his finger and blew up the street, i was framed for your deaths and for the explosion and took to azkaban for life without a trial, i escaped in Harry's third year, but he thought i despratly wanted to murder him and escaped from azkaban to do that. He believed me at the end of his third year but i was still a wanted man. We saw each other briefly in fourth year, but it was hard, i was with him most in fith year, I died near the end of his fith year and here i am." Explained Sirius.
"Oh sirius" said lilly
"I wished you didn't die, harry was depressed for weeks it was hard to get him to eat or drink or do homework or go to classes or do anything once you died. He stopped after a few weeks but it was boring and really sad, and he felt it was his fault. To be fair harry thinks everyone's deaths is his fault." stated Hermione
"That is true" Ron backed hermionie up.
"Ron! Hermionoe!" Said harry horrified
"Oh harry, if i ever die again, promise me you will try and still be happy and definitely don't stop eating or doing anything. And it wasn't your fault, i chose to go there and didn't focus on the battle. Remember what i told you when we first met? The ones that love us, never truly leave us?" Said Sirius
"Yeah"
"Well, i love you, so i will never leave you, even if im dead, ill always be in your heart"
"We're lucky you all came back to life, harry would be grieving loads of people, and feeling like it was all his fault, we could barely handle Sirius, i don't know what we'd do if you had all died!" Hermionie exclaimed
"Thanks for that hermionie" muttered harry.
"Huh.. He he hi guys WAIT A MINUTE DID YOU STUN ME LILLYFLOWER??" shouted James
"James clam down and listen"
"Fine"
"Sirius just told me so ill sum his life up for you: Sirius realised pettigrew betrayed us, he hunted him down, Sirius cornered peter but peter blew up the street and cut of his finger, Sirius was framed and taken to azkaban without a trial for life. Sirius escaped after 12 years. Everyone thought he wanted to kill harry. He and harry made friends at the end of third year, they saw briefly in fourth year as he was wanted, mostly they saw each other in fith year, Sirius died near the end of the year" lilly repeated.
"Oh"
"I have to go Remus see you later" said tonks
"Bye tonks, Should we see first year" suggested Remus
"Yeah" said harry
"Ill go get the pensive" Remus said, heading of to dumbledores office.
"What was first year like harry?" Asked lilly
"Eventful" harry simply answered
"Eventful?" James repeated
Remus returned carrying the pensive over to harry. "Right harry, do you know how to do it?"
"Yeah"
Harry took his wand and took the memories as he dived into the pensive, knowing the others would follow.
They were in a dark, enclosed space with a mat on the floor, a small, thin figure was lying still on the mat.
"Uhhh why are we in here harry?" Asked James
"This is my cupboard"
" YOUR CUPBOARD!?!" raged Sirius and James
"I need to have a little chat with my sister harry, who cares to join me?"
"Ohhh me!" James replied
"Me!!!" Sirius smirked with a evil look in his eyes
"don't forget me and hermionoe" Ron piped up
"And i suppose i keep you out of trouble" sighed Remus, his voice soft but his eyes furious.
"Cant believe dumbledore let you live there, were talking to him to!" Snarled James in a threating tone.