**Matty's P.O.V**
I was arguing with Sheppard when I heard her,
"C'mon Sheppard, what's wrong?" I pled with him,
"Look Matty, you really shouldn't be here," he says putting his hands up,
"Let me see her,"
"You can't," he says pausing, "she just fainted," he itches the back of his neck,
"What? Why,?" I try and barge past him,
"Matty, please go home," he talk to me like I'm his pet,
"She said I could come, she said I could come to the show," I say,
"No she didn't, she didn't speak to you at the bar yesterday,"
"We spoke in her apartment afterwards," I say smugly proving him wrong, he looks up in shock,
"Did you?" She asks slowly,
"Yes Sheppard why else would I be here, I wouldn't just turn up," I shake my head,
"That kinda seems like something you would do," I roll my eyes,
"Matty!" I hear a voice shout, "Matty!" It comes again, it's Ash's, I push past Sheppard, her grabs my arm,
"Please Matty, wait," he says, "she's just woken up,"
"Yes screaming my name, let me see her," I try and break free, he's much stronger than me, moments later Jenna comes running in not looking at me,
"Sheppard! She wants Matty, apparently he's hear," I cough loudly, he looks at me and freezes, Sheppard loosens his grip on my arm, I pull free,
"Now can I see her," I make a face, Sheppard mouths something to Jenna, she nods,
"Okay, but we are all in there with you," Jenna says, I'm confused,
"Alright," I shrug, walking off to find her.
**Ashley's P.O.V**
I sit o the sofa with my head in my hands, what am I doing? Is this what I want? He has a right to know. I look up as Peder walks in, he looks uneasy, he sits close to me, a little too close, I get up and stand against the wall.
Matty walks in looking confused, he catches my eye and gives me a look as if he's asking if I'm alright, I look away, I'm not alright. Everyone files in, I look around the room,
"Do you all have to tucking be here?" I sigh running my hands threw my short blue hair, no one moves,
"Okay I'm really sorry, I don't want you guys in here," I say staring at them, Anthony reluctantly nods and leaves, Sheppard and Jenna follow, I look at Peder,
"I'm staying," he says with a cold look on his face, I pause and walk over to Matty, he puts his hand on my shoulder,
"You okay love?" He looks into my eyes,
I shake my head, I can feel tears in my eyes, I quickly wipe them,
"Earlier this year.." I begin, I can hear my voice croaking, I stop,
"Ashly you don't have to do this," Peder interrupts,
"Peder!" I turn around, I shake my head, "please get out," he rolls his eyes and storms out, I look back at Matty, he's about to speak, I put my finger to his lips,
"Please don't say anything until I'm done," he nods,
"So earlier this year, when we were dating, as you know, I came to see you in Chicago, I came because I had something to tell you, but then I saw you with someone else, and whatever, and I was mad, and I didn't tell you what I was going to tell you, and I made my mind up in that. But, um, what I had to tell you was," i feel tears spill down my cheeks, "I came to tell you I was pregnant," before I have time to think about anything, he hugs me, hard, wrapping me in his arms, I can feel that his cheeks are damp, I take a breath out, and continue, still not meeting him in the eye,
"I didn't know what to do, so I didn't tell you, I didn't speak to you, I had no contact with you, which killed me, but a few months later, in a musty hotel room in Chicago, I, I" I stutter as I break down into sobs, "I had a miscarriage, and, and I don't know how, I didn't drink, I didn't smoke, I didn't do anything, I don't know I what happened. But, but it was me, I kill it, I kill our child," I almost collapse into his arms, our breaths and sobs almost in sync,
"No, no, you didn't," he whispers crying softly, "I, I ruined us,"
"I'm so sorry," I say into his neck,
"I'm so sorry," he says into my ear,
"I'm so sorry, I didn't tell you," I put my face close to his with our noses touching, "because I want to be a mom more than I wanna be an artist, but I assumed you didn't think the same," I break down in tears again,
"Ash, you mean the world to me, I would have done anything and everything to be with you, I love you so much," he says, I look into this big round eyes that still make my heart melt, we stay like that for awhile, inter tangled, faces close,
"Ash?" He whispers, "can I kiss you," I pause, it's wrong, it's so wrong, but I want it, I need it, I nod silently, he slowly pushes his lips into mine, I reciprocate, slowly and passionately, he bites down on my bottom lip, I smile, I feel him smile as well, after a while we both pull away, he kisses me on the cheek, and hugs me tightly,
"It'll be fine," he whispers,
We stay silent for along time,
"Ash? Did you ever love me?" He whispers, I don't say anything,
"Matty, I look into his eyes as he traces my face, "I still do," he looks up, "I never stopped loving you,"
He smiles slightly, "well I'm glad I'm not the only one then," I laugh slightly.
"Matty I'm so sorry," I say again sincerely,
"Babe, it isn't your fault, at all, your so brave and strong, and your that greatest person I've ever had the fortune to meet, and you beautiful and your talented and kind, and funny and sexy as hell and i could go on but I think you get the point,and this is no way your fault, and please don't let it haunt you," he looks into my eyes, and plays with my hair, I smile,
