Beautifully Destructive

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*Christian's POV*

It's 4 A.M. It's raining and I'm up. Again.

The thought of my family not being with me keeps me up at night.

The sensation of being alone in this small, 3 window apartment makes it worse.

Here I am. Existing. Alone.

I can hear the cars and the roar of people rushing down the sidewalk below me. The city never sleeps. There's always something going on. Which is really the reason I moved here 8 months ago.

I check my phone only to see a single notification. A voicemail from my boss says I must come into work at 6 A.M for an emergency meeting. I look at the time and have 2 hours to get prepared for my job at the city jail. This job has been the only thing that has kept me going for the past couple months. I live for the exhilaration. The suspense of finding out what the new inmates will bring and what their stories are.

I quickly drag myself out of bed and before I do anything, I drag Joey, my lazy 154 pound Rottweiler baby off my bed. He's been with me ever since I was a child. He's the only thing my parents left me. I spend enough time with him to call him my best friend. After playing with him for a while I get to the shower.

Most of my deepest thoughts come to my mind in the shower. As the hot water runs down my body, I think about everything I've done and everything I still want to accomplish. I think about my love life and all of my past friends. It then dawns on me that I'm truly alone. My parents tried to force a fairy tale life on me. They've wanted me to meet my princess, fall in love, live happily ever after but, life is not a fairy tale. Believe me I've tried to have things their way but I can't always control how my life shall go. I brush my teeth and fix my hair. I slip into my uniform feeling completely soar from yesterdays police training and speed out the door.

As I walk into work I remember how desperately I need change. My boss has kept me on outdoor security longer then anyone else. "Today will be different." I remind myself as I look into the meeting room. I look around and overhear all of the new-comers talking about their new positions. One of the female officers catch my eye. She's beautiful. She is the type of girl my mom would be happy to meet if I brought her home. She catches my gaze. I quickly look away, only to hear her laugh softly. When I look back up, she's staring at me. I exchange a warm smile and make my way to my seat.

I pray my hard work and ass kissing has paid off and I am switched to a higher position after 8 long boring months of outdoor duty. I sit in my chair and listen to my boss as he assigns everyone their new positions only to hear the words I've been dreading the past week.

"Officer Grey... Outdoor guard."

"No!". I let slip through my lips as I clench my teeth. "I've been an outdoor guard for longer then anyone else. I'm confident I can handle being inside with the inmates you said it yourself."

I watched him carefully as he raised his head from the assignment papers and stared at me expressionless.

"Since you insist.... there is one other position. I wouldn't recommend it for a door guard considering we've lost 3 of our best officers on this position." He said with a serious, stern tone.

I tried to listen tentatively to what I'm going to be dealing with but I can't help but feel excited that a change in my routine is occurring.

He then hands me a file of information on the inmate that I'm going to be dealing with. I can't help but laugh. "A girl? We lost 3 officers because of a thin, 5'7, psychotic girl?" I asked with a smile. The boss grinned. "Don't judge a book by it's cover. I'll make sure to have an emergency button for you." He say's as he hands me keys and an enormous folder of background information. "The girl with more rumors then we have inmates." I sigh as I look down at all the stack of papers I have to read tonight. "What did I get myself into"...

"Cell block 105. Alexandra Baron."