Death Track // Niall Horan

chapter 20 drivers argument

"What do you mean?" she asked as she moved from her seat in the car. we had today an announcement concert for our upcoming tour.

"when we were younger, I really liked you and liked hanging out with you." I told her, she had a confused expression on her face even after I explained it.

"but why are you saying this, I knew you were my friend." she smiled so innocent, and I could see it was fake, I could see she was thinking about worse things again. Like how did I know or why did he say that.

"I know, I just thought it would be nice to say to you. because you were always so tense when I wanted to talk about something serious." I lied. I couldn't tell her I eavesdropped and tried giving her hints from me liking her, she maybe would feel stupid knowing Carmen she probably would.

"that is just... just.. just because of.. of reasons you don't need to know." she snapped and I chuckled knowing I made her mad. she squinted her eyes at me and turned her head to the tv. why would she be tense other wise.

"if you say so. but would you like to go to our little concert for our upcoming tour?" I asked, I could maybe convince management about Elle. she should look for someone who could bare with her, she's nice and al but she's just is really stupid and almost killed my friend/crush.

I chuckled at my thoughts. crush? I looked at Carmen and she was looking out the window now, thinking about my question, becasue she wore a confused expression.

"I would like to see you preform but I don't want to be with you, otherwise I can't make friends. I want friends and if they know I know you or the other boys they're not going to be my real friends I think you already know." I bobbled my head in a yes.

"okay, but I'll let someone drive you, and I'm keeping my eye on you." I winked and her cheeks turned a light pink colour, she quickly turned away when she noticed she was blushing. I smirked, I didn't knew I had this affect on her. still

"you really don't have to, I can take a taxi," she smiled and she looked so peaceful I really don't know why, but she did look like that.

"but no, I insist. really I'm your friend and I can afford it, and you're living with me, and that means I'm going to take care of you." she frowned when I spoke my last words.

"you can't take care of me, no one needs to do that. there will be an end for me soon enough." she looked sadder, not so peaceful as before. and I didn't like it.

"don't think like that." I stepped closer to her and she flinched away. "you're not going to die, we're going to find you another muse." I smiled secretly hopping it would be me once again.

"I don't think that will help Niall." she smiled bravelly.

"please don't say that, don't say that please...." I hesitated before I let the words role of my thong. "....for me" I looked up and scooted again closer, her eyes widened. I think she hasn't thought about kissing me, but I dreamed of kissing her. but dreams are to be made true aren't they.

I took her hands in mine, but didn't break eye contact. I leaned closer just like the night I left for the xfactor. but this time it wasn't for my lips to land on her cheek, no her lips were the right place now. I leaned in closer and I could feel her breath, it was heavily breath. I closed the gap between us and was going to kiss her.

she placed her hand on my chest and looked really sad, she looked up with guilty eyes.

"Niall I can't, you don't want to kiss me." on that moment the car stopped for the ice shop we were heading to, and Carmen quickly got out. she rubbed her arms and waited for me to come out. so I did, and quickly got my jacked off, I draped it around her arms, but she shook her head.

"no, it will be warm inside." she smiled and her bottom lip trilled, she gave my jacked back and quickly walked to the entrance. why was she so subborn.

I walked after her and opened the door for her, she nodded her head and walked in still rubbing her arms. we walked to the front and Carmen looked at the ice cream. she smiled and then quickly order, I did the same. we walked to a little table where we could sit with us two.

"you know." I started. "I'm not cold you could borrow my jacked" she shot me a glare and crossed her arms over her chest. "just saying." I chuckled and an smile appeared on her face.

"you know I could just take a taxi." she looked up from her ice cream and a little bit was on the out side of her mouth, which was adorable. she didn't care how she ate around me, unlike Elle she firstly barely ate and she would always eat like she was in a five star restaurant. not that we ever went there. I would take Carmen there though. but I think she prefers MacDonalds.

"But I would like just to know Someone drivers you, you know." I spoke hoping she would chance her mind.

"But I've never been in a taxi before, specially not in London." She blinked her eyes twice and gave me a beautiful smile.

"Fine." I gave in, she squealed in happiness. "But.. You have to promise me that you'll go home with." She thought about it and took another bite of her ice cream.

"Except if I find friends and they van drive me."

"Deal." I shook her hand. I took another bite of my ice cream and watched Carmen struggle to get some ice cream out of the cup that was defiantly empty, I chuckled and her head shot up. she blushed but I shook my head and handed her my cup which was half filled.

"no really I'm fine, mine is even more full than yours." she spoke sarcasticly.

"I'm done anyway, and you aren't and there is a snack table at the concert anyway." she smiled and took it and after a few moments of silence I heard the spoon hitting the bottom of her cup once again.

"we should go." I spoke and Carmen nodded her head in a 'yes' I stood up and waited for Carmen to do the same. we walked to the exit and I once again held the door for her.

"thanks." she mumbled quietly, I smiled and after this moment I could never forget how much Carmen could. one of the things she loved, and I adored.

I called a taxi over and gave Carmen more then enough money to pay the taxi driver. she smiled and waved before stepping in and that's how the taxi drove of.

I walked to my own car and made sure I would come safely to the conert. I drove to the back entrance and quickly parked my car and made a run for the entrance. hoping no fan would see me, my head was a big mess at this moment and I couldn't place why.

maybe the concert would give me some distraction.

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AN: so it's valentine. The 14th of February to be exact. So to me, the day I'm only feeling more lonely... Yes I'm usually lonely on valentines day, so I guess I'm not that lucky in love.

But that's the reason I'm updating. This is my relation ship 'the idea of my characters being together' yes I live a very lonely life, I notice how use the word lonely only more.

But bye lots of love x