Holding On

Chapter 53: Give Me Love

Ryan slowly leaned towards me placing his forehead on mine. We were both breathing heavier than before.  He separated our foreheads as his soft lips made contact with mine. I had completely forgotten how his kiss felt. They were so gentle and sweet and passionate.

The kiss wasn't long but it was enough for me to not want him to leave.

"I love you" He placed his forehead on mine once again.

"I have to go, it's getting late" He said softly before he gave me a kiss on my forehead.

I didn't want him to leave. I needed to be with him. He's the only one who hasn't physically hurt me. Yes, I know he cheated on me with that bitch Katie, but he was the only one who wasn't afraid to get close to me. I know Derek still has feelings for me, I can tell by the way he looks at me, but he's afraid. He's afraid of himself. Before I could think I grabbed Ryan's hand as he turned to walked to the door.

"Ryan.." he was shocked by my actions.

"Can I go with you?" His eyes opened wide for a quick second before a smile appeared on his face.

"Of course"

With that I walked to Derek's room to tell him good night. Sadness covered his face as I told him I was leaving with Ryan. I gave him a kiss on the cheek before I left to meet Ryan at the front door.

It was cold outside and I didn't have a jacket.  Ryan gave me his jacket, which smelled exactly like him might I add.

The drive to Ryan's house was mostly silent. He would make a few comments here and there that made me smile, besides that it was pretty much the radio.

As we drove through town I saw a few young couples. They seemed so happy and in love. I could tell by the way they looked at each other that they were in love.

I directed my attention away from them and to the radio.

Give me love like her,

'Cause lately I've been waking up alone.

Paint splatted tear drops on my shirt,

Told you I'd let them go.

And that I'll find my corner,

Maybe tonight I'll call ya,

After my blood turns into alcohol,

No I just wanna hold ya,

Give a little time to me, or burn this out,

We'll play hide and seek, to turn this around,

All I want is the taste that your lips allow,

My my, my my-y oh give me love,

My my, my my-y oh give me love,

My my, my my-y oh give me love,

My my, my my-y oh give me love,

My my, my my-y oh give me love

Give me love like never before,

'Cause lately I've been craving more.

And it's been a while but i still feel the same,

Maybe I should let you go

You know I'll find my corner,

And that tonight I'll call ya,

After my blood, is drowning in alcohol,

No I just wanna hold ya,

Give a little time to me, or burn this out

We'll play hide and seek, to turn this around,

All I want is the taste that your lips allow,

My my, my my-y, oh give me love

Give a little time to me, or burn this out

We'll play hide and seek, to turn this around

All I want is the taste that your lips allow.my my, my my-y, oh give me love

my my, my my-y oh give me love,

my my, my my-y oh give me love,

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover (Ah! )

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover (Love me, , love me)

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover (Give me love)

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover (Give me love)

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover (Give me love, love me)

M-my my, m-my my, m-my my,

give me love, lover (Give me love)

my my, my my, oh give me love

my my, my my oh give me love,

my my, my my oh give me love,

my my, my my oh give me love,

It seems that every time something happens to me, there's always a song out there that's meant for me to hear.

We pull into a familiar building. The condo.

"You still live here?" I'm actually kind of surprised I thought he would've moved or something.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I?" confusion clear in his voice.

"I don't know" I shrugged my shoulders. I honestly thought he would've left because of the memories left from me. But, could that be why he stayed?