July 23,2016
Saturday Morning
To:Namjoon
You did it again. You made my heart flutter without you even knowing. How can you have so much power over my heart? I want to leave you for hurting me. But I stay. Bearing the pain.
It's worth it. You are worth it. I sound desperate but really , I just want to see you happy. If you love a girl. Go after her. I'll just be the idiot I am and let you chase her.
I won't even put up a fight for you. Not because I don't want to. Trust me I do. I rather you be happy without me than with me. Let's be honest there is no "happy with me" it doesn't exist.
I want to be selfish and only care about myself. But. You are always on my mind. You never seem to leave. I follow you into deep waters, knowing I am going to drown. But I don't care. As long as you are happy, even if I am in pain.
I want to see you up close but I know it will make it worse. But I am still here hopelessly in love with you. I can't move on. I won't.
I rather be in pain than leave you. So stay strong . If you do that then I will too.
~Ji Yeon
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