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Chapter 26: Trapped

Deidara

These past few days in Sasuke's base had been... calm. It could be that I had a deal with Sasuke that obligated me to have relations with him, but it wasn't all that bad because at least he treated me nicely and I enjoyed it- something very strange even for me! Because the only time I had ever truly enjoyed sex was with his brother. Was it something that had to do with the Uchihas? Because I was starting to doubt myself. Only with them had I been able to enjoy it and not feel that excruciating pain I had felt with the rest of the Akatsuki.

In all honesty, although I had been here for a few days, I still kept dreaming of Itachi every night, sometimes having nightmares of him. More specifically: the day he violated me. I didn't want to tell Sasuke about it, but I felt that he knew something was up because often times I woke up drenched in sweat and shouting to stop.

Perhaps Sasuke didn't know that the nightmares were about his brother, but he had an idea of what I was dreaming about. If I had to choose right now between the Akatsuki and staying here in Sasuke's base having relations with him, then I preferred to stay here because while I could keep loving Itachi despite what he did, I didn't want to suffer again and Sasuke protected me from everything.

As it was a habit now, I had sex with Sasuke before accompanying him to the breakfast table to eat. I was hungry and the only thing that had me nervous to come out of Sasuke's room was the thought of having to deal with Karin, her jealousy and her insults. Although in the end, Sasuke ended up dismissing her from the table, it was almost a habit now. It didn't bother me much. Sure, I was gaining her hate but she wouldn't dare touch me because that would only cause her to have serious problems with Sasuke and I didn't think she wanted those problems, so in the end, she was mostly all talk.

Truthfully, maybe that's why I also enjoyed coming out of the room; because I knew she got annoyed almost instantly and she couldn't do anything to me as Sasuke prohibited her from doing so. Taking into account that he took favor over me, I felt much more safe and confident.

As always, I sat next to Sasuke and I had to acknowledge that he had an odor similar to his brother. That made me remember Itachi even more and I only wanted to forget about him. If it was up to me, I wouldn't want to see him ever again but the other part of me, remembered the good moments and I loved those moments with him. Hating him and loving him... how was this possible?

Karin, as always, insulted me although this time, Sasuke didn't bother to say anything as it was Suigetsu who spoke, sending a shameless wink my way. From the small grunt I heard after that, I guessed Sasuke had given him a good kick under the table. I looked over to Sasuke to check if he had that serious and quiet face of his, finding that only when we were alone in his room did he smile a bit. I think he didn't favor looking like he had emotions when he was with the rest. Just like his brother! Although both would get mad if I pointed it out.

When we returned to the room, Sasuke was being weird but I didn't want to ask if he was feeling bad. In the end, between him and I, absolutely nothing happened. We weren't in a relationship, it was just sex. We both enjoyed it; I did my part of the deal and he did his and nothing more. This oral contract between us was the only thing that united us as we kept it a secret from everybody else.

"Would you like to go out for a walk?" He asked me and I didn't know how to respond.

"Outside?" I ended up asking because it had been days since I've been out of this cave.

"Of course outside. It wouldn't be fun if it were around the cave." He smiled at me.

"Where will we go?" I asked.

"Are you scared of finding yourself with Akatsuki or what?" He asked me.

"A bit."

"I already told you that I wouldn't let them take you with them. I'm going to protect you, besides, we're just going out for a bit. We can go wherever you want."