Life Changes

ch27

Cpov
Im starting to really worry. Its now 3 am and Shan is not home, Ally told me once sge got news of her she would call me but she hasnt. I wonder whats taking them so long i hope they are okay. Im currently in the living room walking back and forth.

"Is mommy home already?" baby Aiden says in a low voice making me jump

"Oh..kiddo what are you doing out of bed" i ask her getting on my knees infront of her

"I cant sleep without mommy reading me a bedtime story"

"You really love her Dont you kid?" i ask her and she nods her head and hugs me and i hug her back tightly

I was turning off Aidens night light off and heared noise in the living room. I walk out and i see Ally carrying Shan. Shan looks like she can barely walk.

"Here Ally let me help yo...." i try to say

"Fuck off dont touch me you fuckn lier" Shan says

"Shan whats wrong!?"

"Dont Camden...Ally can you please take me to the upstairs guest room" shan says and Ally just nods yes and doesnt look at me

"Wait...you arent sleeping with me tonight?" i say low

"I dont even wanna be in the same fuckn city with you Camden" she says and then her and Ally walk off

Whats wrong with her. Shes drunk, does she still hate me for leaving? What can i have done for her to hate me this much. I just dont understand. Im in the kitchen when i here Ally walk down stairs

"Ally"

"Look Cammie...i just cant look at you the same. I lost all respect towards you" she says

"Whats wrong with you guys! I havnt done shit" i say raising my voice

"You havnt done shit!? Wow goes to show how much of a selfish bitch you are" ally says and walks out

I just stand their in shock and sit on the steps of the stairs crying.

Its the next morning and i havent slept just thinking about Shan and my baby. Aiden is gonna be so heart broken and i dont know how Shan feels. I decide to make breakfest when Shan walks down the steps

"Shan?" i ask trying not to cry but i fail

"Why Cam? Why me?" she asks with pain

"I dont know what you mean Shan please tell me what i did wrong" i ask

"Wow" she says and laughs

"Shannon"

"How could i believe you!! Yet how could i be so fuckn stupid!!" shan yells at me

"Why!? Why are you saying these things"

"How could i believe that bullshit as crap you told me!! You didnt come back because you missed me" shan says and i stay frozen.

"Explain Shannon i dont know what you mean" i say

"You dont know what i mean!? Oh really! Then this might help you remember!" she says and throws a folder at me and it opens up all over the floor. I bend down and start reading all the papers and im in shock

"How did you get this" i ask low

"Vanessa did me the fuckn honor. She knew since the beginig that you were shady as fuck!!"

"I didnt mean for all of this to happen Shan" i say

"Oh you didnt mean for all this to happen!! Wow! You fuckn knew i would be so stupid enough to take you back at the snap of a finger"

"Shan lower your voice...Aiden can here" i say

"Well good! Let her hear! Let her know who her mom trully is cause i honestly dont know who she is" shan says crying

"I didnt mean for none of this. I didnt mean to hurt you. I just needed help, i didnt want my daughter to live in the street" i say crying

"Well congratfucknlations Camden you did the opposite of that. You thought i hated you before? Well guess what i despice you now" shan says and it hurt so much

"Please dont say that" i say crying in front of her on the floor"

"Im so done.. I dont wanna hurt you even tho this was a big fuck you to my face i cant hate you. I hate myself for not being able to!" shan says and walks back up the stairs and im left here crying

Its been 3 hours and im packing up mine and Aidens clothes.

"Mommy where are we going?" Aiden asks and i look her in the eyes

"Kiddo were just going on a vacation" i say trying not to cry

"Is moma Shan coming?" she asks. My poor daughter is gonna be heart broken

"No baby she has to stay cause she has work" i say and hug her tight..

Were done packing and were headed into the loby when shan see us

"Where are you going?" she ask and shes still crying

"Were leaving because their aint much for us to do here" i say looking down

"Please dont. Please dont leave me. Please dont take my daughter from me" Shan says on her knees infront of me

"Please dont do this Shan you shouldnt be on your knees. Im the one that should be doing that" i say

"Please dont take her" Shan says sobing

"Shan its for the best" i say

"Where are you going?" she asks

"Were going on a vacation mommy" Aiden tells Shan and Shan goes and hugs her and breaks down

"I promise you as long as im alive you will have everything because youre my world kiddo" shan says and hugs Aiden tighter

"Mommy..why arent you coming ?" Aiden asks and whipes shans tears

"Do you want me to go?" shan asks

"Yes mommy" Aiden says and i look the other way to cry

"Well ill go anywhere you go as long as im with you and your mommy. My life wouldnt be conplete without you two" shan says and i fall on my knees and cry

"i lost you once and i cant loose you again. I feel like my worlds falling" shan says crying

"Shan i cant, I hurt you. I have to leave" i say

"Please dont leave me..please dont take her from me" shan says

"We just have to" i say

"Where are you going? You dont have money. Im not about to let you sleep in a car" shan says

"Shan i just cant keep hurting you" i say

"If you dont wanna be here fine just let me take care of you guys. Ill get you a house, whatever you want just don't walk out of my life and disappear like you once did" shan says hugging me

"No shan thats to much i cant accept that"

"I love you and that beautiful little kid. I dotnt care if i go broke i just want the best for her" shan says

"You love her so much dont you?" i ask shan

"Yes" she says and her voice cracks

"Why Shan? Shes nothing yours" i say and lean my head against hers

"I just want to make her happy and see her grow. In my eyes shes my little baby daughter" shan says and it breaks me. Were just sitting here crying

"Dont leave me" she says

"I dont wanna hurt you"