Life Changes

ch17

Spov
Its been 3 years already and i miss living with Ally and Stevie. I wanna text them about my problems but i honestly dont wanna bug them. Me and Cam have been really distant lately and its starting to make me think that she might not love me anymore. I was planning on proposing but i see its not gonna happen if we keep acting weird.
All this is hurting me and i cant help but to think this is the end.

Cpov
I dont know anymore. I was deeply in love with Shan but now i dont feel it. I feel like ive faild her and i dont wanna hurt her but i just cant lie to her anymore. I wanted to get married with her and have little small beautiful kids but everytime i think about that it makes me sad because i dont love her anymore like i used to. Im planning on telling her later this afternoon at dinner.

Spov
I planned a suprise dinner for Cam to try to fix thing. Im gonna ask her to marry me because i really dont wanna live with out her. I dont what i would do if i ever lost her. Lets see how it goes.

Cpov
Its been a great time but i just look at Shan and i dont see what i used to. Her blue eyes just make me feel less of a person for falling out of love.
"Hey cam" shan said coming over to me
"Yes Shan?" i said and she got on one knee
"Cammie i know weve been having a hard time but i dont ever wanna live without you. Will you do the honor of being my wife" shan said with tears in her eyes and i just couldnt so i looked down
"Im..sorry......i..just cant" i said and pushed her a little to move her out my way so i could run out

Spov
I got up slowly and walked over to cammie and got on one knee
"Cammie i know weve been having a hard time but i dont ever wanna live without you. Will you do the honor of being my wife" i said and when i saw her face my heart fell and waited for the next
"Im..sorry......i..just cant" she said and pushed me off and i fell back. I just stayed their and slowly cried.
I cried for a while and went up to the side of the hill with a bottle of Champaign in one hand looking down to the ocean. I took out the ring i spent time and effort looking for
"I dont ever wanna see or here from you again Camden Scott. It hurts my heart because i know nomatter how much you hurt me i cant hate you because i love you so much" and with that i tossed the box with the ring into the ocean. I wanted to jump and i was about to untill someone pulled me back
"SHAN!!! Shan wake up. Please wake up" was the last thing i heared.