How Can I Ever Get Past This

How Can I Ever Get Past This Chapter 5

"No, I actually came here looking for him, is something wrong?" I asked her.

"Well I don't know if Kaylin told you but I and Kaylin's dad got in a fight. I...... I did some horrible things and Kaylin and his dad found out about. Neither one of them have been talking to me much lately. Keith left and went on a business trip early do try to spend some time away from me. His plane crashed and there were no survivors. I told Kaylin and he ran out the house. He’s so mad and he blames me and I’m just so sorry.” She poured out as the tears strolled down her cheeks. I was stunned. I didn’t even know how to react in a situation like this. Should I hug her? Should I side with Kaylin?

"This is not your fault" I told her

"Here I'll try to find Kaylin and talk to him, okay?" I told her.. She nodded as she swiped at the tears. “I’ll tell him to give you a call to let you know that he’s okay.” I assured.

“Okay, thanks Sydney,”

Why wouldn't Kaylin come talk to me? I was his girlfriend, not only did he not come talk to me he ignored me. I guess I couldn’t blame him though. I ignored him or more than a few occasions. I pulled out my phone and tried calling his phone. Still no answer, I started driving. I tried to think over in my head where he would go. I went on a whim and went to the place where Kaylin and I always met up when we wanted to be alone.

I pulled into the wooded area and was relieved when I saw Kaylin’s car parked.  I began walking through the trees. It was definitely a little scary walking out here by myself. Kaylin and I would usually walk together. I made it to the shadowed meadow that displayed the moon in its reflection. I saw Kaylin sitting on a boulder that faced the meadow. I made my way over to him. He didn’t look up at me not one time as I made my way over to him. I took a seat next to him and grabbed his hand.

"Kay" I whispered

"Kaylin" I said a little louder.  I tightened my hold on his hand and kissed his cheek.

"He's gone" His voice was breaking "And it is all because of her, he works hard for her, buys her everything she wants and what does she do in return. She fucks another man. That slut!" He had so much venom in his voice as if he truly resented his mother at the moment.

"Kay don't talk like that, she is still your mom" I said to him. He was pretty angry.

"My mom? What mom beaks up a loving happy family? She’s not my mom. She's a whore!" He spat.

"Kaylin!" He was way out of line with the way he was talking about his mom. She still cared for him. She was worried about him at this moment.

"No my dad is dead because of her. He would have never left on that early flight if it wasn't for her." I lifted his head and finally looked at me. I stared into his eyes. I could see so much hurt and betrayal. I leaned in and kissed him

“I’m sorry,” I whispered against his lips. He deepened the kiss and leaned over me gently laying me down so that my back was against the boulder. He moved himself so that he was between my legs and hoisted my legs up.

"Kaylin" He pressed himself harder into me.

"Kaylin you-" He leaned down and whispered in my ear.

"Syd I need you so bad right now. I got to have you" He started grinding on top of me, while deepening the kiss. His hands began to unbutton my jeans. I pulled away from the kiss.

"Kaylin stop" I pushed him, but not off of me he was way too strong. He stopped and just stared at me. He looked in my eyes. I felt so guilty, but I didn’t want it to happen, not like this.

 "I'm sorry" I said

"Don't be" He leaned and kissed me softly on the lips.

"Can I stay at your house tonight?" he asked me

"Yea definitely" We got up and walked to the cars. He followed me home. When we got to my house I asked him if he wanted to talk, but he just shook his head and went up to my room. I locked the doors, turned off the lights, and headed upstairs. When I got to my room he was already in bed. I changed into shorts and a tank top and then climbed in bed next to him. He turned over and wrapped his hand around my waist and laid his head on my chest.

"I love you"

"W-What?" I stuttered.

"I love you" he said. I could feel the butterflies roam around my stomach and my heart seemed to flutter.

"Me too" I replied. I couldn’t believe that he truly loved me. It was great to have him feel the way about me the same way that I felt about him. It was truly a gift to have love someone and have them love you back in the same way.